Nothing like starting the day off with some darn Wii scary game... "Cursed Mountain" is a good game.. if you have hand and eye coordination.. and that I am not good at! *Well I can't be good at everything* I like the investigational part of the game.. but as for fighting ghouls.. *Gets my heart racing and I can think of better ways to do that!*
Best played in the dark.. *No not me.. well actually that isn't a bad idea...* but the game silly! And once you get past the tuition bit.. it moves on and you have to learn more and more moves... and that is what confuses me.. keep it simple is what I like...
*No this isn't a self portrait or my MIL tut*
Anyway.. today is antoher cool day, but the pollen count must be high as eyes are itching and seem to be sneezing a darn lot today.
Keep thinking about that job I applied for.... the pay isn't much.. and goes by how much you hand in.. but.. well.. it would be nice to get it.. but heyho!
Not much further forward with the MIL *Mother in law of course* plans... but it is still early days. Had suggestions that just have a massive party.. surpise one.. but she will know something is going on as she has to come from Wales to Bristol so sort of gives that away doesn't it.
I wouldn't mind her and I doing something for a day.. or morning.. you know one of those make your own purfume days... but not sure she would be into that as she has dodgy skin.. as in senstive.... well you never know.. I might do it with Daughter or a friend..
Christmas is coming isn't it... must check again at bottom of page how many days.. it says
102 days 9 hours 58 mins and 45 seconds... *whhhooooooohhhhooo, I do like Christmas.. it isn't about the gifts... it is spending time with the ones you love and making memories*
Did I mention Daughter has now been offered a permenant position with RAC.. she is taking it with a good pay rise... so really proud of her there! But then she said she had a boyfriend... *Mmmm why does something good always come with something you worry about?* Well he is the 21, with a child of 2, daughter, and works at the same place she does. I do hope he is nice.. I have been told that I am not allowed to threaten to break his legs or pour burning candle wax in his eyes.. so I suggested concrete boots if he is horrid to her, but she didn't want to go for that either! *She is such a party pooper at times!* I really do hope he treats her well.. as I don't like to think that my 20 year old baby will get hurt.
Ooo the sun is coming out...
Didn't sleep well last night.. in fact the night before either I didn't. I asked GOS if he prodded me in the side at around 2. 30 am ish.. and he said he didn't.. this is a story I will continue on with later... as going to make a Christmas card....
Yikes we are in September already.. and today it is like a cool winter's day..*Not that I mind as I do prefer cooler weathers to the heat.. *
I haven't written for ages as I still seem to be battling with this darn eating thing... die if I don't and can die if I do.. *Over eating that is.. as in too much* Wonder how much you have to eat before your stomach bursts? Anyone know.. might have to look that up!
Well my friend is back from her hols with her bloke... Mmmm no comment on him.. but I think she is wonderful so we can over look some things can't we!
I have been sort of good the last few days..been on the Wii Active.. did 1 hour and 15 mins yesterday and the day before half hour.. and we are going to have a Wii night tonight.. ... *Yes just GOS and me... Mmm will see how that goes... maybe even a drink...* I wonder should I do it in my sexy black nighty... *Nah want to keep everything in its place.. nothing worse that it flopping around your knees lol.. no they don't! Get that out of your head to start with tut!*
I am going to try and organise a bash for the mother in law for her 70th Birthday.. I sent out an email to all her children and their children and think we are going to get the mother in law to come to us.. in the uk that is... as there are far more people to travel to her than take us to her! Will keep you posted on that... the D day for this is 19th December.. which also happens to be my sister's birthday too...
Well can't stop thinking of food... maybe I need to turn my thoughts to something else... Mmm now what is there... food... sex.. food... sex... *OMG I think I am turning into a man.. ahh no missed out .. scratch balls... fart.. drink .. rummage in front of trousers and leave hand there... WHY DO THEY DO THIS? so luckily I have a very long way to go before I turn into one...*
Going to read my book I think..
Oh applied for an online job.. would be nice to get it .. as only part time and doing something I love.. but will have to wait and see.... keep you posted on that too...
Oooooo hope you are all ok out there...
BBL.....
Well I heard back from the job.. they sent more information... so I replied.. of course! Then got another email from them with a sample. So I completed that.. and sent that off and now sat here waiting to hear from them? Never know.. fingers crossed *But hard to type*...
Not sure what to have for dinner so will do something boring as GOS is having corned beef hash *Yuk*
Waiting for GOS to say when we can start our Wii night....
Drat.. darn.. and all the other stuff that goes with it....
Delicately got on the scales *As if that is going to make any difference, but I live in hope!* and it says 3 lb loss not as much as I wanted... still have another 1.6 to go to make it back to my 4 stone.... why did I have to get poorly... Not only is my body against me but the worlllllllllllllllld.. Do you hear me!
Ok.. so I was a little naughty at the weekend... I did have a small hot dog sausage, some small glasses of champers... brie.. ahh don't make me go on.. it is painful to recall... upset with myself now..... But then again .. on the other hand.. I did have a lovely time.
Not written much this week really have I... see this is the true life of a middle aged woman...!!
Got the lawn done yesterday.. cleaned out the rabbits and have the ironing still to do but these hay fever tabs really do make me tired!!
When I woke this morning to look at my lovely mowed lawn.. the darn mole has been up and made a couple of hills... please don't tell me we are back to finding ways to get rid of it!! We have tried.. traps.. *Dug them back up!*.. broken glass *Dug that back up to!!*... smoke bombs *Don't work* oh lots of things... guess it is the joys of living in the countryside!
Today we are going to DennlyParc... should be fun.. have to do some ironing grab a shower and get sorted... Might take a picnic... goodness knows what I am going to eat... *Hangs head in shame now before we even start*
Well can't sit here have things to do... hopefully write more later.....
*Walks off praying to be slim... pray with me for goodness sake!*
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14.31 pm
The rain.. wow the rain... so that has put a stop to going out today! Such a shame as LM was so looking forward to going.. so said that if it is sunny tomorrow we will go then.. she cheered up and asked to go on the Sims...... how could I say no to a beautiful little face!
GOS got up... spent some time looking for a cd and is now working on that downstairs while I clean the kitchen.. washing.. ironing .. change the beds and start to pack for going away.... *Sometimes I wonder if I should have been born a bloke.. and kick back and just scratch my crutch!*
Not sure I am pleased about the woman always being the homemaker!! OR having to do the chores around the home! Is it cause we notice things.. and they don't and if we ask for help.. .we are nagging or moaning!
I wonder if I just stop doing things he will notice and not take it for granted! I have not objection to doing my share or more ... but for it to be noticed would be nice!
So looking forward to going away.. not saying goodbye to LM.. that is going to be hard... but to see Daughter. Oh now there is another story.... she was told she was staying on at RAC and get an extra 400 a month.. now that has all fallen through.... So I have been looking for more jobs for her.... she seems to be so unlucky... but she is still planning to stay on there till Jan unless something else comes along.. *I really hope it does*
Ha...the woman called Emily Horne who commited bigamy... well what can one say... I have one GOS.. don't think I could cope with 5 moaning all the time! She is looking at about 7 years in prison.. what a load of crap... what about all these people that kill others and they get less... what is up with the UK? *Wonders if she had the same dress for all of the weddings?*
Can't watch the news... it is always so depressing.. why do people always have to hurt others? What is the matter with these people!
Just had a bag of crisps and three small meringue twirl things... *What's up with me.. why do I want to sabotage my efforts... think the weekend is starting to stress me out*
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19.30pm
Talk about being totally stupid... I think I have just eaten the entire contents of the house!!! So don't think I will be losing this week and I am only on day one of a new week! *What a plonker*
Have been thinking about freelance writing... just wonder if I could cut the mustard in that? Might have a look at a few courses.... I mean I have written courses that are taught all over the world so I guess I could or might be able to do it!
Think it is time to start dinner... going to do jacket spud with cheese and homemade burgers! Should be good.. just have to find space for them now... also some salad!
Also is time for Come Dine with Me.....
BBL.... maybe...
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2.38 am
Well feeling really disgusted with myself at the moment... so blew today and will probably take me another two weeks to lose what ever I ate today.. plus also want to lose the other 1.5 lb! And going away on Thursday and it is going to be so hard to stick to it over there... will be gone for 10 days to 2 weeks.
Going to have to be really strong and make sure that I have plenty of healthy food around me to eat... *Oh why wasn't I born ugly and thin than stunning and large!!*
Have to go to bed... got to be up in the morning... Night all
I am not in pain anymore and I have just thrown myself on the scales and lept off in such dissapointment!!
00.3lb.2oz... that means I have had a gain from 00.11 lb . 8 oz!!! Let us say about 5 lb in two weeks... *S**t C***p B******s*
Well now I am feeling better after 12 painkillers a day and 2 anti biotics and 1 stomach tablets... so are they fattening?
I know I wasn't left with a lot that I could eat as I couldn't open my mouth! But for goodness sake ..... well not going to moan.. I did have some birthday cake that I made for my Daughter... who has gone home now :(
Just going to have to get back on the wagon and lose those pounds now along with the extra stones I want to shed!!]
The weekend with my family went farrrrr to quickly... but it did seem that all I was doing was cooking and cleaning! ... Didn't spend half as much time as I wanted to with Daughter, we didn't even get in the pool at the same time. Also never got any photos.. but I will look at the camera as I am sure Daughter took some!
My lovey niece is with us for two weeks now so we are going to be doing different things every day now...
I thought we could kick start today off with doing the March DVD and then a dip in the pool... maybe a walk later... will have to see!
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20.50 pm
We did the March Dvd.. LM (Niece) was being lazy and not doing all of it.. but we did have a laugh... then we went swimming for about an hour or so....
Got out to make some lunch.. was really nice...
The day has gone really quickly.. and I am still in shock that I have put on so much weight in such a short time!! *Gutted really...*
LM is allowed on the pc to play Sims 3 *think she is addicted to it already!!* then it is off to bed...
We are reading a goosebumps book... The Egg Monster. She is doing really well... we take it in turns to read a page each. I love reading time with her... we snuggle up and really get into the story. I love to do all the sound effects and make her jump.. she then giggles... *She is so much like my lovely departed sister*
Think I will be in bed early tonight myself! Feel worn out.. think all the lack of sleep while in pain with the face/tooth is starting to catch up with me.
Just heard the news.. what is Alan Sugar doing in the houses of parliament!! *Oh maybe we can all get in!* Well maybe this one won't need to steal from the government for his personal use...
Reading time.. may be back later.....
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22.51 pm
Just remembered I haven't put down what I have eaten today... and I do have to start to be strict with myself again don't I!! Tut.. thought you were keeping me on track!!
B: Pineapple, nectarine banana and yogurt
L: Bean and potato soup *Homemade of course!* and ice cream
D: Spag bol... Pork .. HB
Syns..Parm cheese.. 1.5 syns.
HA = HB = Pork
Workout... Half hour march and swimming!
Total Synergies... 1.5 out of 105
So not bad today eh!! Think I might have some more ice cream as I can dig away at that and it is free!
GOS has taken control of the telly since dinner time and tonight it has been all space things.. over and over again... *Yawn*
Gee I am tired. Then again it is nearly 11.15 pm here!
Oh never told you... my father and GOS looked at the Dishwasher.. and he had not got the right part... so back to washing up in the sink... god help that machine when I do get the right part,.. it is in for a beasting!!
So back tomorrow all... *Must think thin.. think thin woman thin thin thin!*
Yes..yes.. I am still in pain... feel like my ear is about to explode!! *Still sobs and wonders why oh why me*
10.40am
Just taken some paracetamol.. hoping it will ease some of the pain... *Pray for me please* Strange but if I press my ears tight when I swallow it doesn't hurt so much... but my gum does!
I just wanted to add insult to injury and got on the scales... well just goes to show doesn't it. 00.11 lb 2 oz... so I may be on to losing my usual 1/2 pound! *What happened to a massive loss of 3.5lb.. bah!*
Just realised I have another birthday card to make and better get in the post... best do that tomorrow! Don't have enough stamps.
Raining again... hoping it will stop later so I can get the lawn and weeding done...well some of it.
Think GOS is waiting for the sun to shine to dig up some pots from the veg plot.
My HORRORSCOPE *Wonder what joys there are to come*
July 12, 2009 Although the Moon's approach to shocking Uranus can seem like an alarm clock getting ready to go off, you actually feel quite comfortable in your own skin. You are more attracted to the idea of process, freeing you from having to fix everything right now. But Lover Venus adds magnetism to your personality today, allowing you to get what you want from others. Nevertheless, nothing will happen unless you take the initiative and get the ball rolling.
*Ahh right.. would be today wouldn't it.. nurse mouth ear and throat or lap dance in sexy black nighty... sorry face wins today.. in too much pain! Drat one day window too!!!*
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12.20 om...
Rain has stopped so might see if I canget out weeding ... but does hurt to move darn head forward!!
If you see on the sidebar... yes over there ------------>>>> I have added a recipe section... *Whoooohoooo* It will open up the thread where the recipe is.. so you may have to scroll to down the day... but you will get a recipe... SW of course so will be tasty! I will add more as I go along...
Card done...
Thought you might like to see the view from my office window... although not a sunny day.. it is still lovely to look out there...great when you hear the rustling of the leaves on the trees and the birds tweeting...
Think food is calling.... *Wonder would it help if I stuffed my ear with cotton wool?* Stabbing pains inside ouchhhhhhh!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Thought I would put this curry recipe on as it is really lovely..
ROGAN JOSH CURRY
Serves 2 (Loads) red day and no rice..Free.... for a green day.. use chicken or lamb as hb..so again would be Free.
500g Chicken or lamb.. diced. 1 red pepper...chopped Tin toms Tom puree Large onion ...sliced Coriander seeds cumin curry powder fresh coriander if available Lemon juice chicken stock cube.. or vecon.. up to you. Fry light.
Add fry light to pan.. add onions till soft.. add spice then pepper and cook for a few mins.
Add meat, brown it before adding stock.. make up stock and add (Half a pint will do) and bring to boil.
Add toms..and puree, simmer for about 20 mins or until sauce thickens and the meat is nice and tender.
I then add to slow cooker myself and have the next day.. but can be eaten when done.. add coriander leaves and squeeze of lemon juice... done!
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GOS has his musical people here.... they have been here since 2.30 pm.. banging away downstairs.... *Maybe I should rephrase that!!*
I on the other hand.. well I have been doing the washing up.. cleaning the fish tank out... moving things around in the kitchen and have of course the rest of the ironing to do.
Was going to mow the lawn as it is dry but darn face is hurting too much...A friend suggested I go to the drs... but there is a holiday on Tuesday so doubt I will get in now... *Might have to take up drinking again..medicinal of course silly*
Not keen on Sundays... always make me feel melancholy..
Just been down to take them some drinks... *Can't have dead bodies in my cellar now can I*
Yes.. think I will go and clean the brass pans...*Such an exciting life... I have said about three full sentences today.. to humans that is... I can ramble on here for hours.. why do you think I bore you so much!*
Not sure what to have for dinner as hard to open mouth.. *MMmmmm soup or liquidise roast dinner*
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6.51 pm
Well.. blow me!! GOS has finally sussed something is wrong with me... only as I am finding it hard to talk and he said... "What's the matter with your mouth?" I looked up to say and he just turned away and carried on watching the racing *Yes recorded...sigh* I asked him if he wanted a coffee.. which of course he said "Yes".. he actually came to the kitchen and said "Ahh jelly later" and I started talking to him, while making his coffee.. only to turn round an realised I had been talking to myself... *I feel sooooooo loved!!*
You know if this wasn't actually my life.. I could find this rather funny... Sad woman.. types all day on computer for company.. ignored by husband who she loves and gets shouted at.. often!..misses her daughter and lives in a tiny hamlet with no one to talk to!!
Wow.. that is my life! Hard to think I was a busy bee before moving here.. teaching..writing beauty course, beauty/holistic therapist, nail technician, masseuse, NVQ assessor..treating clients all day... and now... a blog! *My goodness my life has been reduced to a blog!*
The mad overweight blog woman! Well I have my health... *Mmm well not at the moment with my head hurting as it does...stop laughing!*
Still can't decide what to have for dinner....
Noticed that Alan Carr Chatty Man is now following my twitter.. *He must have hit the button by mistake!*
Alan Carr Chatty Man....click on his name for the details of his show... worth watching! He made me laugh... even though I was feeling crap and in pain.. so hats off to him!.... I just loved his interview with Dawn French... she is amazing.
So if you miss that.. here is the next time it is on...
Took 2 more ibuprofen at 9.. but seems not to be kicking in.. could be that I am tired.. *just hope I will get some sleep*
OMG it is weigh in tomorrow.. OFFICIAL WEIGH IN *runs round room screaming!* I just know that I am either not going to have lost or lost very little. Was really hoping last weeks loss was the kick start to losing weight again.. you know what I mean ... on a more increased level not 1/2 pound a week... We will see!
Daughter rang earlier.. was lovely talking with her. Can't wait to see her.
GOS spoke to me.. *I know I was shocked too* but only got "A trip to the dentist is coming up then!" and then he walked away... I tried to say it was my ear and throat to but he mumbled it could be the tooth causing that and he was gone... pooof!
Have Alan Carrs Chatty Man show on record... as GOS is watching telly... he may watch it with me.. not sure...
Could do with a good laugh.. just hope it doesn't hurt my face!
BBL............
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Total Synstodate... 66 out of 105
B: Pear
L: Tomato pasta thing.. Not nice.. but soft so easy to swallow..and parm cheese 3 syns Lemon Ice cream..
D: Homemade pork chili burgers and SW chips.. with apple vanilla ice cream!
Yes thought I would title it with a song theme today... *Seems like I have been up for hours.. so maybe I am feeling tired!*
Resisting the urge to get on the scales as not got that feeling I am losing anything this week. *Hangs head down low*
I dont' think I am eating enough and I think I am eating too much fruit! No.. really.. I eat a lot of fruit... and after all it does contain natural sugars and calories. *Wonder if that is what is upsetting my tummy too.. kept waking me again in the night* My goodness.. with my stomach.. night sweats and everything else.. no wonder I am a wreck at the moment!
I was thinking of ways to inspire weight loss... and then came across this... this will make you think!! *It did me!*
BODY FAT
Yes rather nasty isn't it...
Having looked around .. they say that you have to eat less approx 3500 calories a week to lose 1lb of body fat... but this also depends on lean muscle loss as you can also lose that.. which we think is fat loss... but because we are all different.. it doesn't mean that if you cut back 3500 calories you will lose that weight.!! Gets complicated doesn't it.. *So see where I am coming from with this fruit thing.. so much for the government to say.. 5 a day!*
Thought that this was rather a nasty image too.. if you can visualise fat every time you eat.. it might make us eat a little less! *What do you think?*
So I feel I need to revise my eating plan... *Again.. but this is life isn't it* Thing is.. if you look at my eating... there doesn't contain a lot of fat in it.. so if I were to cut out even more fat from that.. what would be left...*So must be the fruit*
But for now.. I have my list of things that I need to crack on with.....
Must finish wall.. so off I go.. *When I have finished my coffee that is!.. stop being so pushy*
But this did make me chuckle...
Ok enough for now.. this isn't get the wall done it is?
BBL...........................
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12.43pm
Painting...first coat on.... waiting for that to dry.. then on goes the next... *Getting hot painting with all these coats on!* Have another wall to paint but that is a deep red.. so waiting till I have done one to do the other.. but just washed part of it down... *Fingers crossed I have enough red paint left*
GOS got up... got his coffee.. took the paint upstairs from the cellar for me and I have not seen him since... in the mean time.. I have painted the wall...done all the washing up.. cleaned the kitchen and now having a cuppa before I get on with the wall again.. then there is a pile of cleaning to do .. not to mention the ironing... *Am I doing something wrong here?*
To top it all off... I have a wisdom tooth half through on the left side lower *Opens mouth wide to show you.. aaarrrrrrhhhhh* and it is getting painful... *Wants to go back to bed!*
Don't have much time to sit and goss... some of us have things to do!!
*Sneeze... sneeze.. darn hayfever.. or is it dust!*
Ooooooooo comments.... I love comments... thank you ANON!
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1.20 pm
Thought I would take a look at my HORRORSCOPE!
July 10, 2009 It's hard to control your dreams, for they seem to overflow right into your waking life, making things even more confusing than they already are. But don't try to justify yourself to anyone today. If you aren't sure how to handle a situation, pull back a bit until you know what to do. Temporarily retreating is wiser now than pretending that you can tell where your fantasies end and reality begins.
Opps... maybe I need to shut up today!! *Drat..drat and double drat* Maybe tomorrow will be better let's see....
July 11, 2009 The Moon's return to your sign can brighten the colors of your dreams and soften the edges of reality. You are lured into believing things that hug dangerously close to the edge of irrationality -- that dividing line between fiction and fact. Some of your beliefs will flip-flop back and forth, so don't put your final answer into writing until you wait and see what happens over the next couple of days.
*Oh no.... does that mean I have to be quiet for a couple of days*
Nah... how can you shut me up!! *No I don't want answers.. like hey there fattie!*
Got toothache... *Sobs.. then looks up to see if you really care*
Going back to my Shirely Valentine wall... bbl....
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Darn tooth is hurting.. well gum is!! Now also the side of my tongue... I keep washing my mouth with antiseptic mouth wash... *Screams why meeeeee!*
GOS is in a bad mood... I rang him to say come look at the wall.. *Only downstairs in his music room* as was pleased with it besides the staining coming through again.. must be something in the brick? *Which is annoying and has stumped me so far!* But thought we could discuss it...*As in .. maybe I could reseal the wall again* .... well boy was I wrong! I promptly got told that all I do is complain, would have been easier if he had done it.. and to leave it and he will do it! *Wanders off feeling really unloved :((*
Just cooked his food.. now going to finish my cleaning.. as I had the music on the sky and GOS turned it over to watch his racing.. and now has gone back down below... Maybe he will come up again when he wants feeding.
Now you know why I ramble so much!! I don't just have a wall I have a house to do my Shirley Valentine on!
Going to do some more cleaning... Such joy!
BBL.............
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Nearly 7 pm
Fed up.. *Don't want to talk about it...:((*
This is one person who really does some blogging... crafty stuff and something about Candy... *Me thinking it was chocolate* But I believe it is crafting candy... looks good though...
Well must be time to do the dinner... I have done most of the painting.. but of course another coat is needed... *Will find it really hard to move if I have to wear anymore*
Dining room area is all clean... Lounge area is all clean.. done the hallways... and kitchen floor.. tomorrow I want to do the kitchen cupboards.. and utility room... hoping I will still find time to do the washing .. ironing.. mow the lawn and weed the flower beds... *Superwoman.. yeah I wish*
Might just do myself chop and wedges... GOS... well. not sure really what to cook without the thought of getting my head bitten off... *Wonder how much I would lose weight wise then... my brains must way loads!*
BBL...
If you could be anyone in the world.. who would it be and why?
I think I would like to be GOS.. cause he has someone that loves him no matter how much he shouts... and well can do what he likes and get dinner cooked etc... Not bad!
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Nearly 8.00 pm
I am showered again.. so gone is Yeti 3!... Tooth/gum still hurting.. can't stop sneezing and have a headache and starting to ache all over..... yep the day is just getting better and better. *Oh is it Swine Flu ! ..Nah will be negative energy that is floating around the house*
Dinner is on... so that is one thing.. just not sure how I am going to eat mine... *One way to lose weight I guess... *
So hungry now... *Now I have got over my anger*
Daughter might have someone to swap her shift at work... *Whhoooo hoooo* It does mean that she will have to work 10 straight days..but she is young.. she can take it! *So is there a god.. oh no... now I have said that.. something else will happen!*
Had email from the said Father's Lady Friend. I sent her one.. did I say.. just to clarify things... and she sent me a nice email back... Think she might be a little worried.. but then again I would!!
Going to watch the box.. see what is on... Maybe Come Dine With Me... I like that... *Yes it is official I am a bore!*
*Runs to kitchen to make ice-cream... yes the SW Free one.. will help to numb the gum... hopefully*
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11.10 pm
Gave in and took a couple of tablets for my mouth... starting to feel a bit better.. still got headache.. so hoping it will kick in for that too soon!
Still got the dishes to do.. *Bah* Thought GOS might suggest he do them after being mean.. *Silly me*
Total Synstodate... 44 out of 105
B: Rice, yogurt, nutmeg
L: Apple pear
D: Pork Chop.. roasted veg jacket spud and LCL Cheese
AT:3 nectarines.. banana
HA: 1 x Milk LCLCheese HB:Pork Chop...2 slices of ham
Woke up this morning.. oddly laughing... *Yes actually laughing* Then dozed off again... and now for the life of me I can't remember what I was laughing at.... yes the laughing woke me up!
Also stomach cramping.. but think it might be time to double meds again for a few days and hope it settles down!
Sneak wi... not good.. 00.12 lb... seems to be creeping back up! Does my body hate me again! *Well that makes a change!*
Made GOS some brandy and coffee ice cream with sultana *They were soaked in the brandy* and he said it is lovely...
I am off out later hopefully... going with my friend to pick up his husband, a little jaunt out... so will be filling you in if anything exciting happens.... *This is my life so I very much doubt it*
Looks like it might be rain today... another surprise! But I still have to sand down the wall and hopefully find the cream and the red paint to get that done... would like to do that before I go out... so have to get my botty into gear!
*Still not mastered this dancing yet.. maybe I should try another sort.. must look up lap dancing*
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2.48 pm
Right I think I have managed to do the darn wall... yes the plaster I put on yesterday came off.. and thank goodness to be honest as it set solid and it was so hard to sand... Managed to find some of the other stuff which is like UK plaster only white.. and fingers cross it is done!
Just a little sanding down tomorrow and I can then paint and clean my room or rooms as it is all open plan... *Don't ask* So much dust... *I haaaaaaaaaaatttttttteeeeeeeeeee dust* Just reminds me of when we first got this house and everything needed doing.. and we just seemed to be surrounded by dust all the time...
But of course.. it is Strike of the Yetti 2! Yep need to have a shower and get changed before going out. Going to enjoy my coffee and fruit first.. the go get ready!
Ok .. question for the ladies.. as not sure if it is my OCD that is getting in the way here. GOS said he would wipe his tray and help with the kitchen.. *Yes I was shocked too!!* Anyway.. he got the tray and cloth and instead of doing it over the sink.. wiped all the bits on the floor. *Of course there were several words said..* So is that a man thing? Or is that me being OCD? *Please leave your comments at the bottom of this post...*
Only 7 more sleeps.. have I said that before today? See I am losing the plot.. *Must be dust inhalation*
Not sure if I should be having second thoughts about father bringing a lady friend... She said she wanted to bring or should she bring a posh frock! *Maybe I should make them all dress for dinner* We are going to have what Daughter wants to eat that weekend... as it is her weekend.. and so far it is my moussaka and bbq that she has requested. If that is what she wants then that is what she gets!
Yikes have to be ready in less than an hour.. I do hate rushing!!
*But still drinking coffee and seeing as milk is from allowance.. I am going to drink it.. so there!*
One of my friends goes on her hols soon... I will be so upset if she forgets to send me a post card.... *There that will remind her... or make her feel guilty*
Ok.. off I go..bbl...
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Had a nice time.. got back just after 9.15 pm tonight.
Nothing really to report.. just that I was in the car most of the time... Picked up a few things while out..
Was glad to get back to cook dinner and enjoy the chili... *I was starving*
Watched Torchwood... was ok...odd how we are fascinated with such SFI. Feeling rather tired...
Must get back into exercise tomorrow.
I think when I get up I will do that wall... and get that out of the way... clean up... paint the room and then do my march dvd....
*Wonder if I did March type dance that would entice GOS... MMmm .. nah!!*
Well tomorrow is a new day and I have a lot to crack on with before Daughter arrives...
Told my father that he was on washing up duty if he didn't bring parts for that good for nothing lazy dishwasher! I wouldn't mind but spend nearly 70.00 for a special door to put on the front of it..*Just so it didn't feel left out in our new kitchen.. so it can fit in.. pfft see what happens.. doesn't pay to be nice does it* so if it won't work... I have torture in mind for it!
Well might go and have some naughty crisps... not going to be a good week this week... I have this feeling!
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Total Synstodate... 29.5 out of 105
B: Apple, small pear / banana
L: Tin of beans in tom sauce... bah! *Might go attack the fruit now* apple and banana.
D: Chilli and Rice and had extra chilli
AT: Fruit Bounty bar.. fun size.. 6.5 syns. Crisps 8 points.
Not sure where the weeks are going.. but as long as I am still losing weight.. I guess I shouldn't care... *But then whats the point of being a slim old age pensioner when you can't wear the trendy stuff*
*Mmm... maybe not!!*
Have been messing around with some widgets today.. and have been looking to see if there is a way to set up a recipe section... *Still working on it .. but it won't beat me!
I was saying to myself today.. NOPE.. don't get on the scales.. but I did.. and it read...00.11lb 6 oz... *Up down up down.*
Still no news on change of day off for Daughter... *Starting to stress me out now*
Had a total binge out last night..*Don't know what happened*
Total Syns todate... 20.5 out of 105 and we are only on Wednesday!
Might just have some fruit for breakfast.....*Really missed not having any in.. why is healthy food cost so much*
List of things I have to try and get through this week..
Weed some of the garden
Mow lawn
Clean boys out
Change spare beds
Hoover top lounge
Re-skim lounge wall and paint
Make cards for 18th birthday
*That will do for now*
But feeling so tired.. these darn hot flushes are starting to drive me mad and have noticed in the evening my darn bones ache... *I don't want to get old*
Must pull myself together!
BBL............................
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OMG!!! 4.35pm
Where has the time gone!!...
Nothing prepared for dinner either... no idea what I want.. might do spag bol that is quick and easy.
When we went out yesterday GOS and I got this bag of plaster... well I kid you not.. by the time I mixed it put it on my hawk.. got up the ladder and put it on my trowel to put on the wall it was nearly set.. I got one sweep across the wall and that was it... not like UK plaster where you can wet it and smooth it over either... *Total disaster... just hoping I can sand it down...more dust!! Oh and I will look like a Yeti.. hate being covered in dust!*
I can't believe it... so gutted.. wanted that all sanded down today so I can get on with painting it in the morning and then getting my house back in order..*Bah*
Food front isn't going well today... just had an apple... I need to drink more.. *Wine would be good and into a real drunken stupor at the moment the way that wall has made me feel...I tell you Shirley Valentines wall wouldn't have done that to her!!*
My hair feels like straw...today isn't turning out as planned. *But still must think thin*
Was wondering today.. do people think my rambling are bizzare.. cause really they might be normal.. I mean we all have odd thoughts and what is an odd thought anyway... I mean ... if I had told you 100 years ago *Not that you were around then or I for that fact* that you would be sat with a keyboard and screen and typing to people all over the world... that is bizzare!
I have just been informed that my father's lady friend is coming to visit... Mmm now where do I put her... Do I allow her to stay in my father's room? What if she doesn't want to? Well I will just make beds and hope for the best. Might tell him I have put light senor alarms round the house.. so not to wonder around ...*Hehehe.. oh is that mean?*
Nice to notice that I have had the odd message left on the side panel... doesn't make me feel so alone... *Puts hand to brow and lifts head looking all lost*
I knew I should have been in television...Drama Queen no doubt GOS would say!
Well sitting here on my butt isn't going to get that wall done now is it... So glad really you can't see me... here I am .. white dusty hair... white vest top and red cut off trousers that are too big and red crocs!! *Not attractive I tell you* Oh and this darn plaster stuff down my chest and a dusty hand print on my butt..
*Sneeze.. sneeze..* Time to clean up...
BBL..................
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5.10 pm
Just had a thought... Are bat wing tops back in fashion? *As was thinking about dinner ladies arms and what best way to hide them than in a batwing top!* Ahh I remember those days... even remember rara skirts... not that I ever had the legs to wear them.... Some of my school friends did... *Hate them all .. hate them do you hear me hate hate hate.... Oooo wonder if most of them still look good...?*
I did remember a few years ago seeing one girl from school... in fact was hard to recongise her... she was walking along the sea front with a push chair and another child holding on.. she looked shattered.. worn and well dragged through a hedge backwards... *Was mean of me to revel in that moment.. but I AM human.. well mostly* She had dark rings round her eyes.. crows feet wrinkles...she looked a wreck... and I thought back to how she was before .. at school.. the pretty girl.. everyone wanted to look like... slim.. lovely hair.. sparkling eyes.. lovely smile.. attracted people.. *Like flies to s**t.. opps sorry!* And now there she was... worn out.. then I thought.. I wonder what life had thrown at her... my feeling of self pride for not looking like that soon passed and turned to pity as such. She could have had a terrible few years and that made me feel rather sad... *But it didn't last and I went off feeling better about myself!*
I guess what I am saying is... make the most of what you have as you never know when it will be gone!... I am sure we have all had better times.. but then doens't mean we are not again... so keep smiling...
*Oh all that thinking has made me hungry.. *
Still not done my dance for GOS.. you know the sexy one I was on about.. .. *was thinking of Pole Dancing again... but not sure my wrists could cope with it.. let alone the pole...might have to give it more thought*
BBL..............
I have to make GOS ice cream today.. *Sulks*
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7.30 ish pm
Well all showered .. spag bol is on.. thin pasta is on.. and I thought I would nip here.. just while it is cooking...
Ouch... I sneezed earlier and pulled a muscle in my back.. *Now that is a sign of old age*
Oh brother on phone!
BBL...
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2.57 am
I know... what am I still doing up! Was watching the box and it got me thinking.. *Dangerous I know!*... but was thinking to why we allow ourselves to get overweight.. insecurity..something to hide behind.. lack of confidence.. being told that your not good enough... there are so many reasons...
Having been sent a photo of myself prior to my 4 stone weight loss.. it does really upset me. How could I have allowed myself to get like that? Why allow myself to get like that even! I am not going to come up with excuses.. which I know I have... but have now realised it is all down to self worth.
No one has a right to make us feel that we have no right to be who we are.. or feel how we do... but some still have powers above that manage to drag you down. Myself.. sadly never having a good relationship with my biological mother and throughout the years.. it has affected me deeply and still does. It wasn't till I was talking to a good friend that it really made me think.... I have spent my whole life worry about what others think of me... I had always been told that what ever I did or do was never good enough... always trying to please... so no wonder I never have had a good opinion of myself.
My whole life.... and what a waste that is... I know our past is what makes us who we are today... but those are years... many years that I will never get back.... My friend is very confident.. and I have to say... she is wonderful... she has spoken to me on my good days and bad days... and she never lies to me...and I have the utmost respect for her. It was talking to her...that makes me think... or should I say think more.
One day I have to cut these painful ties from my past to move forward...and I feel this is one of the reasons I have for many years tried to hide behind... but I am going to try to stop hiding... and learn to be and love me! *Not going to be easy.. but I will try most things once...*
I am glad that I have taken the step to change my life... and often when people take step forward ... they do a lot of self discovery... also sometimes partners don't like seeing change... they react not always in a good way to start with. But I think we have to remember why we are wanting to change our lives... and who we are doing it for... Me it is for me... just for me.
Ahh well.. enough serious rambling...*Going to practice some sexy moves before I perform for GOS*
Again woken by my tummy... seems that every few months it has a flare up and takes a few weeks to settle down...
Trying to be good and not place myself on the scales lol... not sure how long that is going to last though! The lovely birds are still twittering away.. I am sure they have also camped outside our bedroom window and sing their loudest just to annoy me in the morning.
Pleased to see that it has been raining during the night...hopefully may save some of the grass that is playing dead in the garden! I am not sure if today it will rain again as one moment the sun is poking it's head out and then the dark clouds appear. To be honest would be nice to have a day of chilly weather. *Might help with the hot flushes!!*
Hopefully going out today to get some food shopping done.. *No, of course I don't enjoy it... oddly enough why is it men think women love food shopping?* but it is great to have fruit in to eat and not have to struggle to think what to cook for dinner! Last night I put a chicken curry on, *It didn't suit me!* and it has been in the slow cooker all night so should be lovely and tender for later on this evening.
GOS is downloading and the net now is soooooooooooooo slow!
Brrr.. it is actually rather chilly out there! Just been to give the boys some treats.. also noticed a darn molehill!! *Please tell me it isn't staying!* Last time they trashed my lawn..
Going to try and finish the wall today... need to sand it down now and see what it looks like...and then hopefully paint it!
Serves me right doesn't it.. just got on the scales.. and it says 00.12 lb 4 oz... *Think I need to sleep more*
I need to keep tighter reign on my food diary I think....So through out the day.. I will keep one section of what I eat in bold...
B: L: D: Chicken Curry and rice followed by two tubs of home made cinnamon ice cream... *Lush!*
I think I will start a recipe section..*Gee your full of good ideas lol... now just have to figure out how to do it!
AT: 1 pear, 3 small bananas, 2 apricots, and 2 nectarines!
HA: 1 x Milk
HB: Chicken
SYNS (1.5) = 40gm plain crisps 8 syns = 9.5
Brackets are from the previous day(s) so I have a running total.. there that should keep me on track!
Oh.. what to do.. go for a nap or sand the wall down... Mmmm *wavers hands in the air* will drink my coffee first and then decide.
There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one."
How we should all think before we speak.. of course me being me.. I always do! *Yes because I am perfect.. Mmmm*
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1.35 pm
Going to be going out soon.. thought I would look at tomorrows HORRORSCOPE.. see what it has in store for me...
July 08, 2009
You may be weary of sharing so much emotional intensity. Or, perhaps, you just long for a vacation from your own romantic attachments. Either way, the Moon's entry into your private 12th House today amplifies your need to be alone or to keep your feelings to yourself. Don't worry about how others might respond to your desire for solitude. They will be happier once you return from your little retreat more relaxed and refreshed.
Oh.. is that good or not.. I will decide tomorrow.
*Told you sleeping was good for me!!* I got up and re weighed myself and hey presto 00.10 lb 8 oz!!!!! I know it won't last as I have to eat today.. but waiting till we go out and I can have some fruit.. ooo I want fruit !!
*Mmmm... I seem to have lost my colour option on this blog... what is a woman to do!!*
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7.50ish pm
Nope..still no colour option *Screams loudly* Maybe it will be back tomorrow and it is just this post.
I survived the shopping trip... I need to get dishwashing liquid... yes cause the dead dishwasher is still playing dead. Mind you .. GOS still hasn't looked at it... *I do.. I look at it and swear and curse*
So hence I got back from shopping and had to unload it all... then wash up and clean my kitchen... then.. *This is while GOS is sat watching telly.. yes I know!! can you believe it!* cook him his eggs on toast!
I was at this point starving having not had anything to eat all day... *I told you that earlier are you not paying attention*
Off I went to my room with.. are you ready for this.. it is shocking!!
A pear, 3 small bananas, 2 nectarines and 2 apricots and of course my diet free caffiene free coke. *What a pig.. but I do have two meals to make up for today don't I*
Can't make my mind up if I prefer my deep thoughts to be bold or italic.. might do both... *Yes.. cause I can!*
Still no sign of daughter getting someone to do her shift at work... *I will send out thoughts that they are all really sick with the runs on their days off now if they dont' help her out*
She is so set on coming and I don't want her to lose her job over it...I am sure by law that she is entitled to holiday pay... but they will no doubt say she is.. but not unless authorised... We will see what her line manager comes up with... so all keep your fingers crossed for me!
The curry is smelling just wonderful...I can't make my mind up if I want brown rice or white with it..either or.. but brown takes longer to cook....
*Got an older.. well one I haven't been able to get into till now... shorter nighty out.. it has a short gown with it too....In a lovely cream colour with a satin pattern stitched on it... might do a dance to entice GOS later...either that or will give him a heart attack!* He will probably look at me and say... "Arent' you cold woman.. go get some clothes on"
*Slurps at diet coke* It is no good I have to go eat... I am hungry.... oh yeah.. I am going to make some ice-creammmmmm!!
BBL...
*Walks off practicing dance moves for later on...shimmy.. shimmy.. dip.. jump up..hair flick...*
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11.35 pm
Just finished the washing up!! Bahh... but I did get new gloves... nice pink ones .. but they never last me long.
Dinner was wonderful.... I will write that above and even put some pictures in.. so you can drool at how nice my dinner was!!
Yay.. figured out what I had done... doh! *But not going to admit to doing anything ..as it is back again!*
Tonight.. well it is nearly over.. but thought I would just come and put those photos on...a friend of mine might be reading this from work and I know she will be drooling when she sees the ice-cream..... *Yes I did really enjoy it!*
It is a SW free ice cream but also works out syn free on Weight Watchers I am sure!
Off to watch Come Dine With Me... would love to do that I think.. but I would probably be lumbered with a load of idiots... *Well they always do one lovely person (Me) and the others are prats!!*
Well good night all... I wonder what tomorrow holds...
*Hopes she gets up out of bed an leaves the extra pounds on the sheets*
*No this isn't a self portrait or my MIL tut*
