Silly Sunday 13.09.09

Nothing like starting the day off with some darn Wii scary game... "Cursed Mountain" is a good game.. if you have hand and eye coordination.. and that I am not good at! *Well I can't be good at everything* I like the investigational part of the game.. but as for fighting ghouls.. *Gets my heart racing and I can think of better ways to do that!*

Best played in the dark.. *No not me.. well actually that isn't a bad idea...* but the game silly! And once you get past the tuition bit.. it moves on and you have to learn more and more moves... and that is what confuses me.. keep it simple is what I like...

*No this isn't a self portrait or my MIL tut*

Anyway.. today is antoher cool day, but the pollen count must be high as eyes are itching and seem to be sneezing a darn lot today.

Keep thinking about that job I applied for.... the pay isn't much.. and goes by how much you hand in.. but.. well.. it would be nice to get it.. but heyho!

Not much further forward with the MIL *Mother in law of course* plans... but it is still early days. Had suggestions that just have a massive party.. surpise one.. but she will know something is going on as she has to come from Wales to Bristol so sort of gives that away doesn't it.

I wouldn't mind her and I doing something for a day.. or morning.. you know one of those make your own purfume days... but not sure she would be into that as she has dodgy skin.. as in senstive.... well you never know.. I might do it with Daughter or a friend..

Christmas is coming isn't it... must check again at bottom of page how many days.. it says

102 days 9 hours 58 mins and 45 seconds... *whhhooooooohhhhooo, I do like Christmas.. it isn't about the gifts... it is spending time with the ones you love and making memories*

Did I mention Daughter has now been offered a permenant position with RAC.. she is taking it with a good pay rise... so really proud of her there! But then she said she had a boyfriend... *Mmmm why does something good always come with something you worry about?* Well he is the 21, with a child of 2, daughter, and works at the same place she does. I do hope he is nice.. I have been told that I am not allowed to threaten to break his legs or pour burning candle wax in his eyes.. so I suggested concrete boots if he is horrid to her, but she didn't want to go for that either! *She is such a party pooper at times!* I really do hope he treats her well.. as I don't like to think that my 20 year old baby will get hurt.

Ooo the sun is coming out...

Didn't sleep well last night.. in fact the night before either I didn't. I asked GOS if he prodded me in the side at around 2. 30 am ish.. and he said he didn't.. this is a story I will continue on with later... as going to make a Christmas card....

BBL ..............

Where did August Go?

Yikes we are in September already.. and today it is like a cool winter's day..*Not that I mind as I do prefer cooler weathers to the heat.. *

I haven't written for ages as I still seem to be battling with this darn eating thing... die if I don't and can die if I do.. *Over eating that is.. as in too much* Wonder how much you have to eat before your stomach bursts? Anyone know.. might have to look that up!

Well my friend is back from her hols with her bloke... Mmmm no comment on him.. but I think she is wonderful so we can over look some things can't we!

I have been sort of good the last few days..been on the Wii Active.. did 1 hour and 15 mins yesterday and the day before half hour.. and we are going to have a Wii night tonight.. ... *Yes just GOS and me... Mmm will see how that goes... maybe even a drink...* I wonder should I do it in my sexy black nighty... *Nah want to keep everything in its place.. nothing worse that it flopping around your knees lol.. no they don't! Get that out of your head to start with tut!*

I am going to try and organise a bash for the mother in law for her 70th Birthday.. I sent out an email to all her children and their children and think we are going to get the mother in law to come to us.. in the uk that is... as there are far more people to travel to her than take us to her! Will keep you posted on that... the D day for this is 19th December.. which also happens to be my sister's birthday too...

Well can't stop thinking of food... maybe I need to turn my thoughts to something else... Mmm now what is there... food... sex.. food... sex... *OMG I think I am turning into a man.. ahh no missed out .. scratch balls... fart.. drink .. rummage in front of trousers and leave hand there... WHY DO THEY DO THIS? so luckily I have a very long way to go before I turn into one...*

Going to read my book I think..

Oh applied for an online job.. would be nice to get it .. as only part time and doing something I love.. but will have to wait and see.... keep you posted on that too...


Oooooo hope you are all ok out there...

BBL.....

Well I heard back from the job.. they sent more information... so I replied.. of course! Then got another email from them with a sample. So I completed that.. and sent that off and now sat here waiting to hear from them? Never know.. fingers crossed *But hard to type*...

Not sure what to have for dinner so will do something boring as GOS is having corned beef hash *Yuk*

Waiting for GOS to say when we can start our Wii night....

*Taps fingers*

*Taps fingers for longer*

Oooo we are off.. night all!!

Mosquito’s

Yep you guessed it... I have been awoken with a tingling in my lip.. so toodled off to the bathroom to discover that my lower lip has been bitten!!! *I was blessed with fuller lips.. but this is ridiculous...*

After getting a wet flannel.. tried to get some sleep but the thought of getting bitten again and trying to fight with the paranioa of being bitten on the tongue or something and not being able to breath! *It can happen you know!!* I must have dozed for about half hour and got woken again with my finger throbbing... I decided to get up in the end as my left forearm was throbbing too... only got to the downstairs bathroom and looked in the mirror! Quasimodo was looking back at me *Sigh.. yes on the bridge of my nose.. my lower lip and the right side of my chin....hangs head in shame and thinks of ways to ease it*

So I set on another quest of how to ease prevent and kill mosquitos! *People would pay thousands for a lip like mine at the moment.. no puckering up.. *

First page I came across said to rub banana skin on the area... now at the time the arm was swelling and burning and stinging... so I did this.. and hey presto.. that has eased it for a while.. also on the finger... tried the lip.. but that has just annoyed it even more!

They say not to break the skin with scratching.. cut your nails

*Any slight tingle now on my body I am getting paranoid and I am now feeling very tired, but too scared to go back to bed incase I get bitten again and again and again.. I guess I could always tell people I am really a size 10 and my whole body has been bitten.. what do you think?*

Another site said to use bicarb mixed to a paste.. have used that on sunburns... but doesn't prevent does it!! But does work on sunburns .. so remember that if you are an avid sun worshiper!

Now another said to eat lots of garlic... one said to spray with lavender, lemon oil...that citronella doesn't work..

They say not to wear dark colours.. *Yeah the fat girl loves wearing bright colours to draw attention to herself.. NOT* Also make sure that you are completely covered.. *Like I would go out in a bikini anyway!* No.. no it does say.. all arms and legs covered.. put thick trousers and top on and tuck the trousers in some socks *Ahh see now that sounds really attractive doesn't it*

Believe me I have tried most things as when we lived in Germany.. I was also eaten alive there... like this.. and haven't been bitten like this here before!!

It also says that they like to bite people who are over weight... *Yeah pick on the fat people why don't they... *

GOS sometimes get bitten and there he was last night sprawled out.. really hot.. nearly naked.. but no.. they go for me!!

The sky has gone really dark outside.. I have just had to get the washing in which has had a short sharp shower on it.. *Not turning out to be my day is it* Just loaded other washing I had waiting to dry into the dryer .. so might crack on with some ironing in a while...

*Whispers.. dare not say what next.. as something else bad always happens... * No I don't always look on the dark side of things.. I do try to think of positivity.. but it seems to be one thing after another... why is that? All I want is a happy life... *Don't we all I guess*

Have been chatting away to an old friend just now on MSN.. wow some of the times and laughs we had together. Ahh those were the days... how you had no worries in the world but when was the next night out.. what to wear, who was going out etc.... The 80's music... ahh memories...

Right back to Mossy remedies.. bbl...

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Are Painkillers Fattening??

Yes I am backkkkkkkk!!

I am not in pain anymore and I have just thrown myself on the scales and lept off in such dissapointment!!

00.3lb.2oz... that means I have had a gain from 00.11 lb . 8 oz!!! Let us say about 5 lb in two weeks... *S**t C***p B******s*

Well now I am feeling better after 12 painkillers a day and 2 anti biotics and 1 stomach tablets... so are they fattening?

I know I wasn't left with a lot that I could eat as I couldn't open my mouth! But for goodness sake ..... well not going to moan.. I did have some birthday cake that I made for my Daughter... who has gone home now :(

Just going to have to get back on the wagon and lose those pounds now along with the extra stones I want to shed!!]

The weekend with my family went farrrrr to quickly... but it did seem that all I was doing was cooking and cleaning! ... Didn't spend half as much time as I wanted to with Daughter, we didn't even get in the pool at the same time. Also never got any photos.. but I will look at the camera as I am sure Daughter took some!

My lovey niece is with us for two weeks now so we are going to be doing different things every day now...

I thought we could kick start today off with doing the March DVD and then a dip in the pool... maybe a walk later... will have to see!

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20.50 pm

We did the March Dvd.. LM (Niece) was being lazy and not doing all of it.. but we did have a laugh... then we went swimming for about an hour or so....

Got out to make some lunch.. was really nice...

The day has gone really quickly.. and I am still in shock that I have put on so much weight in such a short time!! *Gutted really...*

LM is allowed on the pc to play Sims 3 *think she is addicted to it already!!* then it is off to bed...

We are reading a goosebumps book... The Egg Monster. She is doing really well... we take it in turns to read a page each. I love reading time with her... we snuggle up and really get into the story. I love to do all the sound effects and make her jump.. she then giggles... *She is so much like my lovely departed sister*

Think I will be in bed early tonight myself! Feel worn out.. think all the lack of sleep while in pain with the face/tooth is starting to catch up with me.

Just heard the news.. what is Alan Sugar doing in the houses of parliament!! *Oh maybe we can all get in!* Well maybe this one won't need to steal from the government for his personal use...

Reading time.. may be back later.....

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22.51 pm

Just remembered I haven't put down what I have eaten today... and I do have to start to be strict with myself again don't I!! Tut.. thought you were keeping me on track!!

B: Pineapple, nectarine banana and yogurt

L: Bean and potato soup *Homemade of course!* and ice cream

D: Spag bol... Pork .. HB

Syns..Parm cheese.. 1.5 syns.

HA =
HB = Pork

Workout... Half hour march and swimming!

Total Synergies... 1.5 out of 105



So not bad today eh!! Think I might have some more ice cream as I can dig away at that and it is free!

GOS has taken control of the telly since dinner time and tonight it has been all space things.. over and over again... *Yawn*

Gee I am tired. Then again it is nearly 11.15 pm here!

Oh never told you... my father and GOS looked at the Dishwasher.. and he had not got the right part... so back to washing up in the sink... god help that machine when I do get the right part,.. it is in for a beasting!!


So back tomorrow all... *Must think thin.. think thin woman thin thin thin!*

Is It... Will It... Oh Pleaseeeeeeeeeeee!

Not sure and to be honest very scared to say... but is it getting better.. will it get better today... I so wish it would... not sure how much of this I can handle, or is it that I have that many drugs in my body I am not really sure!

Trying to eat breakfast...what day are we on? Wednesday isn't it?

I am starting my SW week from today so will weigh myself on Wednesdays.. had a couple of days off as have been eating things that I wouldn't normally... not really bad... but soup etc... sadly not ones I had made.. as not had the patience to make them *How do you chop food and cook with one hand to face in agony*

So next wednesday.. if I have gained from the last couple of days.. the so be it.... the pain has taken over and at the moment is winning.. but going to try today to overcome it.. *Yeah right.. break down and cry again... yep I did yesterday.. sobbed like a baby with the pain and made it worse!! So cried some more!*

Only eating now as I have to take more pks as it is killing me.......
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1.10 pm

Painkiller time again!! But I am feeling a little perkier...* is that actually a word? *

Shopping was sort of painless as in doing it.. just did the list got the stuff came home.... *And the usual.. GOS watched telly*

He is happy watching The Universe on telly... *It is always depressing... letting you know when the world will end... * But keeps him quiet.

Brother called again today.. oh didn't I say he did yesterday... bless he rang to see if I was any better... and of course friend down the road.... *Nice to know that people do care when you are feeling so low* He wants me to put some more adverts on for his properties.. so will just do that... bbiab!

Not had lunch yet.. better do that too!!

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B: 2 x weetabix... with milk... *warmed in micro to make like baby food to get in mouth and swallow!*

L: Tuna onion extra light mayo sandwich.. 2 plums and golden bakes... *taken me ages to eat that!* I know this isn't on diet.. but wanted something again soft.. and still feeling sorry for myself!

D:

AT:

HA: Milk
HB:

Syns

Have to take tabs now.. and get ready to go out food shopping... *Deep joy when in pain.. deep joy when not come to think of it!!*

BBL....................

*Trying to smile as Daughter's birthday tomorrow and she will be here all be it Friday early morning*

Going to try this tonight... Guess it is Potato and Cabbage Pie.

Serves 4 in big dish.

2lb potatoes
spring onions
cabbage half will do
Fry Light
Very low fat natural yogurt or Fromage Frais.. 0% fat of course
Mustard powder
Chopped parsley
Seasoning.


Boil peeled and diced pots until tender then drain, but do keep warm.

Slice spring onion and shred the cabbage and fry in pan with fry light. Add some water.. about 4 tbspns and cook till soft.

Add all ingredients together and mash roughly.. then stir in the other stuff.. ie mustard, yogurt seasoning and herbs.

Can serve with either meat or maybe a salad.

Will let you know what it is like... GOS of course won't have it as it is healthy!

Off to do some gardening in hope it will easy my pain or take my mind off it.

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6.10 pm

Daughter sent me this via email... some actually made me chuckle!

To Maintain a Healthy Level of Insanity


1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down.

2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice. !

3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, ask If They Want Fries with that.

5. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions,Switch to Espresso.

6. In the Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write 'For Marijuana'

7. Finish All Your sentences with 'In Accordance With The Prophecy'.

9. Skip down the hall Rather Than Walk! and see how many looks you get.

10. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.

11. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is 'To Go'.

12. Sing Along At The Opera.

14. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area and Play tropical Sounds All Day.

15. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You have a headache.

17. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream 'I Won! I Won!'

18. When Leaving the Zoo, Start Running towards the Parking lot, Yelling 'Run For Your Lives! They're Loose!'

19. Tell Your Children Over Dinner, 'Due To The Economy, We Are Going To Have To Let One Of You Go.'

20 And The Final Way To Keep A Healthy Level Of Insanity


It's Called THERAPY!

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6.30pm

Darn it... *Face killing me... yeah.. heard them all.. like.. "It's killing me too!*

Not sure if to have that cabbage pie thing for dinner.. I just fancy a jacket spud and some LCLCheese.. ooh and might have beens...

Mmmm what do to GOS...... bless he has worked hard on the veg patch today.. infact the last three days... *Raises eyebrows*...

I have been tending to the whole garden and he has worked hard on the veg plot. Oh no I sit corrected he has trimmed the hedges... but what's the bet I have to mow them up tomorrow! But want to do the lawn again before Daughter gets here.

*So excited I could scream... but can't as mouth is too painful... maybe in a couple of days*

Now.. do I stay up and wait for Daughter to arrive.. at about 4 am or do I go to bed and set the alarm..... *Don't think I will be able to sleep,.... will probably be here boring you instead with my rantings*

It is lovely outside today.. the pool is getting warmer.. but GOS said I am not allowed in it till he has finished heating it.. as he has to turn the heater off.... *Would have thought he would have said yeah.. told me the heater was off and then throw something electrical in after me*

Think I will practice more belly dancing when mouth gets better... then I can slip into slinky black nighty and do a dance for GOS... *haha that even made me laugh.. poor GOS.. he has to live with me!*

Birthday cards.. yes even more birthday cards went in the postbox today..

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8.30 pm

Dinner is in the oven... All cupboards have been cleaned.. floors swept.. including dining room lounge and hall.. oh and bathroom!

Washing up done...*The evil dishwasher may get fixed when my father gets here... he is sooooooooooooo good to me :))* Also all dishes are put away!

Aww have a moth at the window.. will just go put it outside... done.. but if it had been a spider it would have felt the base of my shoe... ahh well this isnt' always true.. *Rolled up paper!!* Had a little bird come into my office yesterday.. just hopped through the door.. so I had to open the double windows to let it out.. as last year.. one hit the window so hard it died...*That upset me*

Have been watching the beautiful butterflies in my sisters memorial garden... GOS went to take a photo and most of them flew off.. yet I stand right next to them and they flutter around me.. some of them are just so stunning! Might see if I can get a photo of them tomorrow. They rest on the Budhlia bush... reminds me of being a child and at our grandmother's house... we always used to play in her garden and she had one of them.. that is why I got one for my sister's garden.

Really think these antibiotics are starting to work...I know I have just taken the stronger painkillers but the throbbing seems less.. *Yayyy.. so will be feeling better when Daughter gets here*

Anyway.. best check dinner.. you would have me sat here all night gassing and burn my dinner.. Can you imagine GOS's face if I give him burnt offerings!

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Pain Pain Go Away...

Yes..yes.. I am still in pain... feel like my ear is about to explode!! *Still sobs and wonders why oh why me*

10.40am

Just taken some paracetamol.. hoping it will ease some of the pain... *Pray for me please* Strange but if I press my ears tight when I swallow it doesn't hurt so much... but my gum does!

I just wanted to add insult to injury and got on the scales... well just goes to show doesn't it. 00.11 lb 2 oz... so I may be on to losing my usual 1/2 pound! *What happened to a massive loss of 3.5lb.. bah!*

Just realised I have another birthday card to make and better get in the post... best do that tomorrow! Don't have enough stamps.

Raining again... hoping it will stop later so I can get the lawn and weeding done...well some of it.

Think GOS is waiting for the sun to shine to dig up some pots from the veg plot.

My HORRORSCOPE *Wonder what joys there are to come*

July 12, 2009
Although the Moon's approach to shocking Uranus can seem like an alarm clock getting ready to go off, you actually feel quite comfortable in your own skin. You are more attracted to the idea of process, freeing you from having to fix everything right now. But Lover Venus adds magnetism to your personality today, allowing you to get what you want from others. Nevertheless, nothing will happen unless you take the initiative and get the ball rolling.


*Ahh right.. would be today wouldn't it.. nurse mouth ear and throat or lap dance in sexy black nighty... sorry face wins today.. in too much pain! Drat one day window too!!!*


Off to check the wall!!
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12.20 om...

Rain has stopped so might see if I canget out weeding ... but does hurt to move darn head forward!!

If you see on the sidebar... yes over there ------------>>>> I have added a recipe section... *Whoooo hoooo* It will open up the thread where the recipe is.. so you may have to scroll to down the day... but you will get a recipe... SW of course so will be tasty! I will add more as I go along...

Card done...











Thought you might like to see the view from my office window... although not a sunny day.. it is still lovely to look out there...great when you hear the rustling of the leaves on the trees and the birds tweeting...

Think food is calling.... *Wonder would it help if I stuffed my ear with cotton wool?* Stabbing pains inside ouchhhhhhh!

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Thought I would put this curry recipe on as it is really lovely..

ROGAN JOSH CURRY

Serves 2 (Loads) red day and no rice..Free.... for a green day.. use chicken or lamb as hb..so again would be Free.


500g Chicken or lamb.. diced.
1 red pepper...chopped
Tin toms
Tom puree
Large onion ...sliced
Coriander seeds
cumin
curry powder
fresh coriander if available
Lemon juice
chicken stock cube.. or vecon.. up to you.
Fry light.

Add fry light to pan.. add onions till soft.. add spice then pepper and cook for a few mins.

Add meat, brown it before adding stock.. make up stock and add (Half a pint will do) and bring to boil.

Add toms..and puree, simmer for about 20 mins or until sauce thickens and the meat is nice and tender.

I then add to slow cooker myself and have the next day.. but can be eaten when done.. add coriander leaves and squeeze of lemon juice... done!

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5.43 pm

GOS has his musical people here.... they have been here since 2.30 pm.. banging away downstairs.... *Maybe I should rephrase that!!*

I on the other hand.. well I have been doing the washing up.. cleaning the fish tank out... moving things around in the kitchen and have of course the rest of the ironing to do.

Was going to mow the lawn as it is dry but darn face is hurting too much...A friend suggested I go to the drs... but there is a holiday on Tuesday so doubt I will get in now... *Might have to take up drinking again..medicinal of course silly*

Not keen on Sundays... always make me feel melancholy..

Just been down to take them some drinks... *Can't have dead bodies in my cellar now can I*

Yes.. think I will go and clean the brass pans...*Such an exciting life... I have said about three full sentences today.. to humans that is... I can ramble on here for hours.. why do you think I bore you so much!*

Not sure what to have for dinner as hard to open mouth.. *MMmmmm soup or liquidise roast dinner*

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6.51 pm

Well.. blow me!! GOS has finally sussed something is wrong with me... only as I am finding it hard to talk and he said... "What's the matter with your mouth?" I looked up to say and he just turned away and carried on watching the racing *Yes recorded...sigh*
I asked him if he wanted a coffee.. which of course he said "Yes".. he actually came to the kitchen and said "Ahh jelly later" and I started talking to him, while making his coffee.. only to turn round an realised I had been talking to myself... *I feel sooooooo loved!!*

You know if this wasn't actually my life.. I could find this rather funny... Sad woman.. types all day on computer for company.. ignored by husband who she loves and gets shouted at.. often!..misses her daughter and lives in a tiny hamlet with no one to talk to!!

Wow.. that is my life! Hard to think I was a busy bee before moving here.. teaching..writing beauty course, beauty/holistic therapist, nail technician, masseuse, NVQ assessor..treating clients all day... and now... a blog! *My goodness my life has been reduced to a blog!*

The mad overweight blog woman! Well I have my health... *Mmm well not at the moment with my head hurting as it does...stop laughing!*

Still can't decide what to have for dinner....

Noticed that Alan Carr Chatty Man is now following my twitter.. *He must have hit the button by mistake!*

Alan Carr Chatty Man....click on his name for the details of his show... worth watching! He made me laugh... even though I was feeling crap and in pain.. so hats off to him!.... I just loved his interview with Dawn French... she is amazing.

So if you miss that.. here is the next time it is on...

Date	Time	Channel
Sunday 12 July	10PM	Channel 4
Tuesday 14 July	11PM	E4
Saturday 18 July	11.05PM	Channel 4

Think I need to find something funny... ahh this always makes me laugh...

Thank goodness I don't have a cat.. that is all I can say... at least one cat is spared from being scarred for life!

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10.46 pm

Took 2 more ibuprofen at 9.. but seems not to be kicking in.. could be that I am tired.. *just hope I will get some sleep*

OMG it is weigh in tomorrow.. OFFICIAL WEIGH IN *runs round room screaming!* I just know that I am either not going to have lost or lost very little. Was really hoping last weeks loss was the kick start to losing weight again.. you know what I mean ... on a more increased level not 1/2 pound a week... We will see!

Daughter rang earlier.. was lovely talking with her. Can't wait to see her.

GOS spoke to me.. *I know I was shocked too* but only got "A trip to the dentist is coming up then!" and then he walked away... I tried to say it was my ear and throat to but he mumbled it could be the tooth causing that and he was gone... pooof!

Have Alan Carrs Chatty Man show on record... as GOS is watching telly... he may watch it with me.. not sure...

Could do with a good laugh.. just hope it doesn't hurt my face!

BBL............

*Walks off cradling head*
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Total Syns todate... 66 out of 105

B: Pear

L: Tomato pasta thing.. Not nice.. but soft so easy to swallow..and parm cheese 3 syns Lemon Ice cream..

D: Homemade pork chili burgers and SW chips.. with apple vanilla ice cream!



AT:



HA: 1 x Milk
HB: Pork

Syns Today .............3 total

Not Got That Slimmer Feeling... Whoo oo ooohhh

Yes thought I would title it with a song theme today... *Seems like I have been up for hours.. so maybe I am feeling tired!*

Resisting the urge to get on the scales as not got that feeling I am losing anything this week. *Hangs head down low*

I dont' think I am eating enough and I think I am eating too much fruit! No.. really.. I eat a lot of fruit... and after all it does contain natural sugars and calories. *Wonder if that is what is upsetting my tummy too.. kept waking me again in the night* My goodness.. with my stomach.. night sweats and everything else.. no wonder I am a wreck at the moment!

I was thinking of ways to inspire weight loss... and then came across this... this will make you think!! *It did me!*

BODY FAT

Yes rather nasty isn't it...

Having looked around .. they say that you have to eat less approx 3500 calories a week to lose 1lb of body fat... but this also depends on lean muscle loss as you can also lose that.. which we think is fat loss... but because we are all different.. it doesn't mean that if you cut back 3500 calories you will lose that weight.!! Gets complicated doesn't it.. *So see where I am coming from with this fruit thing.. so much for the government to say.. 5 a day!*

Thought that this was rather a nasty image too.. if you can visualise fat every time you eat.. it might make us eat a little less! *What do you think?*

So I feel I need to revise my eating plan... *Again.. but this is life isn't it* Thing is.. if you look at my eating... there doesn't contain a lot of fat in it.. so if I were to cut out even more fat from that.. what would be left...*So must be the fruit*

But for now.. I have my list of things that I need to crack on with.....



Must finish wall.. so off I go.. *When I have finished my coffee that is!.. stop being so pushy*


But this did make me chuckle...

Ok enough for now.. this isn't get the wall done it is?

BBL...........................

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12.43pm

Painting...first coat on.... waiting for that to dry.. then on goes the next... *Getting hot painting with all these coats on!* Have another wall to paint but that is a deep red.. so waiting till I have done one to do the other.. but just washed part of it down... *Fingers crossed I have enough red paint left*

GOS got up... got his coffee.. took the paint upstairs from the cellar for me and I have not seen him since... in the mean time.. I have painted the wall...done all the washing up.. cleaned the kitchen and now having a cuppa before I get on with the wall again.. then there is a pile of cleaning to do .. not to mention the ironing... *Am I doing something wrong here?*

To top it all off... I have a wisdom tooth half through on the left side lower *Opens mouth wide to show you.. aaarrrrrrhhhhh* and it is getting painful... *Wants to go back to bed!*

Don't have much time to sit and goss... some of us have things to do!!

*Sneeze... sneeze.. darn hayfever.. or is it dust!*

Ooooooooo comments.... I love comments... thank you ANON!

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1.20 pm

Thought I would take a look at my HORRORSCOPE!

July 10, 2009
It's hard to control your dreams, for they seem to overflow right into your waking life, making things even more confusing than they already are. But don't try to justify yourself to anyone today. If you aren't sure how to handle a situation, pull back a bit until you know what to do. Temporarily retreating is wiser now than pretending that you can tell where your fantasies end and reality begins.


Opps... maybe I need to shut up today!! *Drat..drat and double drat* Maybe tomorrow will be better let's see....

July 11, 2009
The Moon's return to your sign can brighten the colors of your dreams and soften the edges of reality. You are lured into believing things that hug dangerously close to the edge of irrationality -- that dividing line between fiction and fact. Some of your beliefs will flip-flop back and forth, so don't put your final answer into writing until you wait and see what happens over the next couple of days.


*Oh no.... does that mean I have to be quiet for a couple of days*

Nah... how can you shut me up!! *No I don't want answers.. like hey there fattie!*

Got toothache... *Sobs.. then looks up to see if you really care*

Going back to my Shirely Valentine wall... bbl....


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3.46 pm

Darn tooth is hurting.. well gum is!! Now also the side of my tongue... I keep washing my mouth with antiseptic mouth wash... *Screams why meeeeee!*

GOS is in a bad mood... I rang him to say come look at the wall.. *Only downstairs in his music room* as was pleased with it besides the staining coming through again.. must be something in the brick? *Which is annoying and has stumped me so far!* But thought we could discuss it...*As in .. maybe I could reseal the wall again* .... well boy was I wrong! I promptly got told that all I do is complain, would have been easier if he had done it.. and to leave it and he will do it! *Wanders off feeling really unloved :((*

Just cooked his food.. now going to finish my cleaning.. as I had the music on the sky and GOS turned it over to watch his racing.. and now has gone back down below... Maybe he will come up again when he wants feeding.

Now you know why I ramble so much!! I don't just have a wall I have a house to do my Shirley Valentine on!

Going to do some more cleaning... Such joy!

BBL.............

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Nearly 7 pm

Fed up.. *Don't want to talk about it...:((*

This is one person who really does some blogging... crafty stuff and something about Candy... *Me thinking it was chocolate* But I believe it is crafting candy... looks good though...

Vikki's Celebration Candy

Well must be time to do the dinner... I have done most of the painting.. but of course another coat is needed... *Will find it really hard to move if I have to wear anymore*

Dining room area is all clean... Lounge area is all clean.. done the hallways... and kitchen floor.. tomorrow I want to do the kitchen cupboards.. and utility room... hoping I will still find time to do the washing .. ironing.. mow the lawn and weed the flower beds... *Superwoman.. yeah I wish*

Might just do myself chop and wedges... GOS... well. not sure really what to cook without the thought of getting my head bitten off... *Wonder how much I would lose weight wise then... my brains must way loads!*

BBL...

If you could be anyone in the world.. who would it be and why?

I think I would like to be GOS.. cause he has someone that loves him no matter how much he shouts... and well can do what he likes and get dinner cooked etc... Not bad!


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Nearly 8.00 pm

I am showered again.. so gone is Yeti 3!... Tooth/gum still hurting.. can't stop sneezing and have a headache and starting to ache all over..... yep the day is just getting better and better. *Oh is it Swine Flu ! ..Nah will be negative energy that is floating around the house*

Dinner is on... so that is one thing.. just not sure how I am going to eat mine... *One way to lose weight I guess... *

So hungry now... *Now I have got over my anger*

Daughter might have someone to swap her shift at work... *Whhoooo hoooo* It does mean that she will have to work 10 straight days..but she is young.. she can take it! *So is there a god.. oh no... now I have said that.. something else will happen!*

Had email from the said Father's Lady Friend. I sent her one.. did I say.. just to clarify things... and she sent me a nice email back... Think she might be a little worried.. but then again I would!!

Going to watch the box.. see what is on... Maybe Come Dine With Me... I like that... *Yes it is official I am a bore!*


*Runs to kitchen to make ice-cream... yes the SW Free one.. will help to numb the gum... hopefully*

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11.10 pm

Gave in and took a couple of tablets for my mouth... starting to feel a bit better.. still got headache.. so hoping it will kick in for that too soon!

Still got the dishes to do.. *Bah* Thought GOS might suggest he do them after being mean.. *Silly me*

Total Syns todate... 44 out of 105

B: Rice, yogurt, nutmeg

L: Apple pear

D: Pork Chop.. roasted veg jacket spud and LCL Cheese



AT: 3 nectarines.. banana



HA: 1 x Milk LCLCheese
HB: Pork Chop...2 slices of ham

Syns ............. 15.5 total

How Many Sleeps?

Only a week and Daughter will be here!!!

Woke up this morning.. oddly laughing... *Yes actually laughing* Then dozed off again... and now for the life of me I can't remember what I was laughing at.... yes the laughing woke me up!

Also stomach cramping.. but think it might be time to double meds again for a few days and hope it settles down!

Sneak wi... not good.. 00.12 lb... seems to be creeping back up! Does my body hate me again! *Well that makes a change!*

Made GOS some brandy and coffee ice cream with sultana *They were soaked in the brandy* and he said it is lovely...

I am off out later hopefully... going with my friend to pick up his husband, a little jaunt out... so will be filling you in if anything exciting happens.... *This is my life so I very much doubt it*

Looks like it might be rain today... another surprise! But I still have to sand down the wall and hopefully find the cream and the red paint to get that done... would like to do that before I go out... so have to get my botty into gear!

*Still not mastered this dancing yet.. maybe I should try another sort.. must look up lap dancing*

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2.48 pm

Right I think I have managed to do the darn wall... yes the plaster I put on yesterday came off.. and thank goodness to be honest as it set solid and it was so hard to sand... Managed to find some of the other stuff which is like UK plaster only white.. and fingers cross it is done!

Just a little sanding down tomorrow and I can then paint and clean my room or rooms as it is all open plan... *Don't ask* So much dust... *I haaaaaaaaaaatttttttteeeeeeeeeee dust* Just reminds me of when we first got this house and everything needed doing.. and we just seemed to be surrounded by dust all the time...

But of course.. it is Strike of the Yetti 2! Yep need to have a shower and get changed before going out. Going to enjoy my coffee and fruit first.. the go get ready!

Ok .. question for the ladies.. as not sure if it is my OCD that is getting in the way here. GOS said he would wipe his tray and help with the kitchen.. *Yes I was shocked too!!* Anyway.. he got the tray and cloth and instead of doing it over the sink.. wiped all the bits on the floor. *Of course there were several words said..* So is that a man thing? Or is that me being OCD? *Please leave your comments at the bottom of this post...*


Only 7 more sleeps.. have I said that before today? See I am losing the plot.. *Must be dust inhalation*

Not sure if I should be having second thoughts about father bringing a lady friend... She said she wanted to bring or should she bring a posh frock! *Maybe I should make them all dress for dinner* We are going to have what Daughter wants to eat that weekend... as it is her weekend.. and so far it is my moussaka and bbq that she has requested. If that is what she wants then that is what she gets!

Yikes have to be ready in less than an hour.. I do hate rushing!!

*But still drinking coffee and seeing as milk is from allowance.. I am going to drink it.. so there!*

One of my friends goes on her hols soon... I will be so upset if she forgets to send me a post card.... *There that will remind her... or make her feel guilty*

Ok.. off I go..bbl...

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Had a nice time.. got back just after 9.15 pm tonight.

Nothing really to report.. just that I was in the car most of the time... Picked up a few things while out..

Was glad to get back to cook dinner and enjoy the chili... *I was starving*

Watched Torchwood... was ok...odd how we are fascinated with such SFI. Feeling rather tired...

Must get back into exercise tomorrow.

I think when I get up I will do that wall... and get that out of the way... clean up... paint the room and then do my march dvd....

*Wonder if I did March type dance that would entice GOS... MMmm .. nah!!*

Well tomorrow is a new day and I have a lot to crack on with before Daughter arrives...

Told my father that he was on washing up duty if he didn't bring parts for that good for nothing lazy dishwasher! I wouldn't mind but spend nearly 70.00 for a special door to put on the front of it..*Just so it didn't feel left out in our new kitchen.. so it can fit in.. pfft see what happens.. doesn't pay to be nice does it* so if it won't work... I have torture in mind for it!

Well might go and have some naughty crisps... not going to be a good week this week... I have this feeling!

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Total Syns todate... 29.5 out of 105

B: Apple, small pear / banana

L: Tin of beans in tom sauce... bah! *Might go attack the fruit now* apple and banana.

D: Chilli and Rice and had extra chilli


AT: Fruit Bounty bar.. fun size.. 6.5 syns. Crisps 8 points.



HA: 1 x Milk
HB: Pork x 2 in the chilli

Syns ............. total 44!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday... Another one!

Not sure where the weeks are going.. but as long as I am still losing weight.. I guess I shouldn't care... *But then whats the point of being a slim old age pensioner when you can't wear the trendy stuff*

*Mmm... maybe not!!*

Have been messing around with some widgets today.. and have been looking to see if there is a way to set up a recipe section... *Still working on it .. but it won't beat me!

I was saying to myself today.. NOPE.. don't get on the scales.. but I did.. and it read...00.11lb 6 oz... *Up down up down.*

Still no news on change of day off for Daughter... *Starting to stress me out now*

Had a total binge out last night..*Don't know what happened*

Total Syns todate... 20.5 out of 105 and we are only on Wednesday!

B: 2 smal pears + 1 small banana

L: Spag bol Parm cheese 1.5

D: Spag bol Parm cheese 1.5 + SW friendly Rice Pud


AT: fruit erm.. lots...

Crisps 30gm 6

HA: 1 x Milk
HB: pork x2

Syns 29.5 total


Might just have some fruit for breakfast.....*Really missed not having any in.. why is healthy food cost so much*

List of things I have to try and get through this week..

Weed some of the garden

Mow lawn

Clean boys out

Change spare beds

Hoover top lounge

Re-skim lounge wall and paint

Make cards for 18th birthday

*That will do for now*

But feeling so tired.. these darn hot flushes are starting to drive me mad and have noticed in the evening my darn bones ache... *I don't want to get old*

Must pull myself together!

BBL............................

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OMG!!! 4.35pm

Where has the time gone!!...

Nothing prepared for dinner either... no idea what I want.. might do spag bol that is quick and easy.

When we went out yesterday GOS and I got this bag of plaster... well I kid you not.. by the time I mixed it put it on my hawk.. got up the ladder and put it on my trowel to put on the wall it was nearly set.. I got one sweep across the wall and that was it... not like UK plaster where you can wet it and smooth it over either... *Total disaster... just hoping I can sand it down...more dust!! Oh and I will look like a Yeti.. hate being covered in dust!*

I can't believe it... so gutted.. wanted that all sanded down today so I can get on with painting it in the morning and then getting my house back in order..*Bah*

Food front isn't going well today... just had an apple... I need to drink more.. *Wine would be good and into a real drunken stupor at the moment the way that wall has made me feel...I tell you Shirley Valentines wall wouldn't have done that to her!!*

My hair feels like straw...today isn't turning out as planned. *But still must think thin*

Was wondering today.. do people think my rambling are bizzare.. cause really they might be normal.. I mean we all have odd thoughts and what is an odd thought anyway... I mean ... if I had told you 100 years ago *Not that you were around then or I for that fact* that you would be sat with a keyboard and screen and typing to people all over the world... that is bizzare!

I have just been informed that my father's lady friend is coming to visit... Mmm now where do I put her... Do I allow her to stay in my father's room? What if she doesn't want to? Well I will just make beds and hope for the best. Might tell him I have put light senor alarms round the house.. so not to wonder around ...*Hehehe.. oh is that mean?*

Nice to notice that I have had the odd message left on the side panel... doesn't make me feel so alone... *Puts hand to brow and lifts head looking all lost*

I knew I should have been in television...Drama Queen no doubt GOS would say!

Well sitting here on my butt isn't going to get that wall done now is it... So glad really you can't see me... here I am .. white dusty hair... white vest top and red cut off trousers that are too big and red crocs!! *Not attractive I tell you* Oh and this darn plaster stuff down my chest and a dusty hand print on my butt..

*Sneeze.. sneeze..* Time to clean up...

BBL..................

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5.10 pm

Just had a thought... Are bat wing tops back in fashion? *As was thinking about dinner ladies arms and what best way to hide them than in a batwing top!* Ahh I remember those days... even remember rara skirts... not that I ever had the legs to wear them.... Some of my school friends did... *Hate them all .. hate them do you hear me hate hate hate.... Oooo wonder if most of them still look good...?*

I did remember a few years ago seeing one girl from school... in fact was hard to recongise her... she was walking along the sea front with a push chair and another child holding on.. she looked shattered.. worn and well dragged through a hedge backwards... *Was mean of me to revel in that moment.. but I AM human.. well mostly* She had dark rings round her eyes.. crows feet wrinkles...she looked a wreck... and I thought back to how she was before .. at school.. the pretty girl.. everyone wanted to look like... slim.. lovely hair.. sparkling eyes.. lovely smile.. attracted people.. *Like flies to s**t.. opps sorry!* And now there she was... worn out.. then I thought.. I wonder what life had thrown at her... my feeling of self pride for not looking like that soon passed and turned to pity as such. She could have had a terrible few years and that made me feel rather sad... *But it didn't last and I went off feeling better about myself!*

I guess what I am saying is... make the most of what you have as you never know when it will be gone!... I am sure we have all had better times.. but then doens't mean we are not again... so keep smiling...

*Oh all that thinking has made me hungry.. *

Still not done my dance for GOS.. you know the sexy one I was on about.. .. *was thinking of Pole Dancing again... but not sure my wrists could cope with it.. let alone the pole...might have to give it more thought*

BBL..............

I have to make GOS ice cream today.. *Sulks*

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7.30 ish pm

Well all showered .. spag bol is on.. thin pasta is on.. and I thought I would nip here.. just while it is cooking...

Ouch... I sneezed earlier and pulled a muscle in my back.. *Now that is a sign of old age*

Oh brother on phone!

BBL...

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2.57 am

I know... what am I still doing up! Was watching the box and it got me thinking.. *Dangerous I know!*... but was thinking to why we allow ourselves to get overweight.. insecurity..something to hide behind.. lack of confidence.. being told that your not good enough... there are so many reasons...


Having been sent a photo of myself prior to my 4 stone weight loss.. it does really upset me. How could I have allowed myself to get like that? Why allow myself to get like that even! I am not going to come up with excuses.. which I know I have... but have now realised it is all down to self worth.

No one has a right to make us feel that we have no right to be who we are.. or feel how we do... but some still have powers above that manage to drag you down. Myself.. sadly never having a good relationship with my biological mother and throughout the years.. it has affected me deeply and still does. It wasn't till I was talking to a good friend that it really made me think.... I have spent my whole life worry about what others think of me... I had always been told that what ever I did or do was never good enough... always trying to please... so no wonder I never have had a good opinion of myself.

My whole life.... and what a waste that is... I know our past is what makes us who we are today... but those are years... many years that I will never get back.... My friend is very confident.. and I have to say... she is wonderful... she has spoken to me on my good days and bad days... and she never lies to me...and I have the utmost respect for her. It was talking to her...that makes me think... or should I say think more.

One day I have to cut these painful ties from my past to move forward...and I feel this is one of the reasons I have for many years tried to hide behind... but I am going to try to stop hiding... and learn to be and love me! *Not going to be easy.. but I will try most things once...*

I am glad that I have taken the step to change my life... and often when people take step forward ... they do a lot of self discovery... also sometimes partners don't like seeing change... they react not always in a good way to start with. But I think we have to remember why we are wanting to change our lives... and who we are doing it for... Me it is for me... just for me.

Ahh well.. enough serious rambling...*Going to practice some sexy moves before I perform for GOS*

Night all... sleep well!