Yep you guessed it... I have been awoken with a tingling in my lip.. so toodled off to the bathroom to discover that my lower lip has been bitten!!! *I was blessed with fuller lips.. but this is ridiculous...*
After getting a wet flannel.. tried to get some sleep but the thought of getting bitten again and trying to fight with the paranioa of being bitten on the tongue or something and not being able to breath! *It can happen you know!!* I must have dozed for about half hour and got woken again with my finger throbbing... I decided to get up in the end as my left forearm was throbbing too... only got to the downstairs bathroom and looked in the mirror! Quasimodo was looking back at me *Sigh.. yes on the bridge of my nose.. my lower lip and the right side of my chin....hangs head in shame and thinks of ways to ease it*
So I set on another quest of how to ease prevent and kill mosquitos! *People would pay thousands for a lip like mine at the moment.. no puckering up.. *
First page I came across said to rub banana skin on the area... now at the time the arm was swelling and burning and stinging... so I did this.. and hey presto.. that has eased it for a while.. also on the finger... tried the lip.. but that has just annoyed it even more!
They say not to break the skin with scratching.. cut your nails
*Any slight tingle now on my body I am getting paranoid and I am now feeling very tired, but too scared to go back to bed incase I get bitten again and again and again.. I guess I could always tell people I am really a size 10 and my whole body has been bitten.. what do you think?*
Another site said to use bicarb mixed to a paste.. have used that on sunburns... but doesn't prevent does it!! But does work on sunburns .. so remember that if you are an avid sun worshiper!
Now another said to eat lots of garlic... one said to spray with lavender, lemon oil...that citronella doesn't work..
They say not to wear dark colours.. *Yeah the fat girl loves wearing bright colours to draw attention to herself.. NOT* Also make sure that you are completely covered.. *Like I would go out in a bikini anyway!* No.. no it does say.. all arms and legs covered.. put thick trousers and top on and tuck the trousers in some socks *Ahh see now that sounds really attractive doesn't it*
Believe me I have tried most things as when we lived in Germany.. I was also eaten alive there... like this.. and haven't been bitten like this here before!!
It also says that they like to bite people who are over weight... *Yeah pick on the fat people why don't they... *
GOS sometimes get bitten and there he was last night sprawled out.. really hot.. nearly naked.. but no.. they go for me!!
The sky has gone really dark outside.. I have just had to get the washing in which has had a short sharp shower on it.. *Not turning out to be my day is it* Just loaded other washing I had waiting to dry into the dryer .. so might crack on with some ironing in a while...
*Whispers.. dare not say what next.. as something else bad always happens... * No I don't always look on the dark side of things.. I do try to think of positivity.. but it seems to be one thing after another... why is that? All I want is a happy life... *Don't we all I guess*
Have been chatting away to an old friend just now on MSN.. wow some of the times and laughs we had together. Ahh those were the days... how you had no worries in the world but when was the next night out.. what to wear, who was going out etc.... The 80's music... ahh memories...
I am not in pain anymore and I have just thrown myself on the scales and lept off in such dissapointment!!
00.3lb.2oz... that means I have had a gain from 00.11 lb . 8 oz!!! Let us say about 5 lb in two weeks... *S**t C***p B******s*
Well now I am feeling better after 12 painkillers a day and 2 anti biotics and 1 stomach tablets... so are they fattening?
I know I wasn't left with a lot that I could eat as I couldn't open my mouth! But for goodness sake ..... well not going to moan.. I did have some birthday cake that I made for my Daughter... who has gone home now :(
Just going to have to get back on the wagon and lose those pounds now along with the extra stones I want to shed!!]
The weekend with my family went farrrrr to quickly... but it did seem that all I was doing was cooking and cleaning! ... Didn't spend half as much time as I wanted to with Daughter, we didn't even get in the pool at the same time. Also never got any photos.. but I will look at the camera as I am sure Daughter took some!
My lovey niece is with us for two weeks now so we are going to be doing different things every day now...
I thought we could kick start today off with doing the March DVD and then a dip in the pool... maybe a walk later... will have to see!
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20.50 pm
We did the March Dvd.. LM (Niece) was being lazy and not doing all of it.. but we did have a laugh... then we went swimming for about an hour or so....
Got out to make some lunch.. was really nice...
The day has gone really quickly.. and I am still in shock that I have put on so much weight in such a short time!! *Gutted really...*
LM is allowed on the pc to play Sims 3 *think she is addicted to it already!!* then it is off to bed...
We are reading a goosebumps book... The Egg Monster. She is doing really well... we take it in turns to read a page each. I love reading time with her... we snuggle up and really get into the story. I love to do all the sound effects and make her jump.. she then giggles... *She is so much like my lovely departed sister*
Think I will be in bed early tonight myself! Feel worn out.. think all the lack of sleep while in pain with the face/tooth is starting to catch up with me.
Just heard the news.. what is Alan Sugar doing in the houses of parliament!! *Oh maybe we can all get in!* Well maybe this one won't need to steal from the government for his personal use...
Reading time.. may be back later.....
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22.51 pm
Just remembered I haven't put down what I have eaten today... and I do have to start to be strict with myself again don't I!! Tut.. thought you were keeping me on track!!
B: Pineapple, nectarine banana and yogurt
L: Bean and potato soup *Homemade of course!* and ice cream
D: Spag bol... Pork .. HB
Syns..Parm cheese.. 1.5 syns.
HA = HB = Pork
Workout... Half hour march and swimming!
Total Synergies... 1.5 out of 105
So not bad today eh!! Think I might have some more ice cream as I can dig away at that and it is free!
GOS has taken control of the telly since dinner time and tonight it has been all space things.. over and over again... *Yawn*
Gee I am tired. Then again it is nearly 11.15 pm here!
Oh never told you... my father and GOS looked at the Dishwasher.. and he had not got the right part... so back to washing up in the sink... god help that machine when I do get the right part,.. it is in for a beasting!!
So back tomorrow all... *Must think thin.. think thin woman thin thin thin!*
Yes thought I would title it with a song theme today... *Seems like I have been up for hours.. so maybe I am feeling tired!*
Resisting the urge to get on the scales as not got that feeling I am losing anything this week. *Hangs head down low*
I dont' think I am eating enough and I think I am eating too much fruit! No.. really.. I eat a lot of fruit... and after all it does contain natural sugars and calories. *Wonder if that is what is upsetting my tummy too.. kept waking me again in the night* My goodness.. with my stomach.. night sweats and everything else.. no wonder I am a wreck at the moment!
I was thinking of ways to inspire weight loss... and then came across this... this will make you think!! *It did me!*
BODY FAT
Yes rather nasty isn't it...
Having looked around .. they say that you have to eat less approx 3500 calories a week to lose 1lb of body fat... but this also depends on lean muscle loss as you can also lose that.. which we think is fat loss... but because we are all different.. it doesn't mean that if you cut back 3500 calories you will lose that weight.!! Gets complicated doesn't it.. *So see where I am coming from with this fruit thing.. so much for the government to say.. 5 a day!*
Thought that this was rather a nasty image too.. if you can visualise fat every time you eat.. it might make us eat a little less! *What do you think?*
So I feel I need to revise my eating plan... *Again.. but this is life isn't it* Thing is.. if you look at my eating... there doesn't contain a lot of fat in it.. so if I were to cut out even more fat from that.. what would be left...*So must be the fruit*
But for now.. I have my list of things that I need to crack on with.....
Must finish wall.. so off I go.. *When I have finished my coffee that is!.. stop being so pushy*
But this did make me chuckle...
Ok enough for now.. this isn't get the wall done it is?
BBL...........................
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12.43pm
Painting...first coat on.... waiting for that to dry.. then on goes the next... *Getting hot painting with all these coats on!* Have another wall to paint but that is a deep red.. so waiting till I have done one to do the other.. but just washed part of it down... *Fingers crossed I have enough red paint left*
GOS got up... got his coffee.. took the paint upstairs from the cellar for me and I have not seen him since... in the mean time.. I have painted the wall...done all the washing up.. cleaned the kitchen and now having a cuppa before I get on with the wall again.. then there is a pile of cleaning to do .. not to mention the ironing... *Am I doing something wrong here?*
To top it all off... I have a wisdom tooth half through on the left side lower *Opens mouth wide to show you.. aaarrrrrrhhhhh* and it is getting painful... *Wants to go back to bed!*
Don't have much time to sit and goss... some of us have things to do!!
*Sneeze... sneeze.. darn hayfever.. or is it dust!*
Ooooooooo comments.... I love comments... thank you ANON!
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1.20 pm
Thought I would take a look at my HORRORSCOPE!
July 10, 2009 It's hard to control your dreams, for they seem to overflow right into your waking life, making things even more confusing than they already are. But don't try to justify yourself to anyone today. If you aren't sure how to handle a situation, pull back a bit until you know what to do. Temporarily retreating is wiser now than pretending that you can tell where your fantasies end and reality begins.
Opps... maybe I need to shut up today!! *Drat..drat and double drat* Maybe tomorrow will be better let's see....
July 11, 2009 The Moon's return to your sign can brighten the colors of your dreams and soften the edges of reality. You are lured into believing things that hug dangerously close to the edge of irrationality -- that dividing line between fiction and fact. Some of your beliefs will flip-flop back and forth, so don't put your final answer into writing until you wait and see what happens over the next couple of days.
*Oh no.... does that mean I have to be quiet for a couple of days*
Nah... how can you shut me up!! *No I don't want answers.. like hey there fattie!*
Got toothache... *Sobs.. then looks up to see if you really care*
Going back to my Shirely Valentine wall... bbl....
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Darn tooth is hurting.. well gum is!! Now also the side of my tongue... I keep washing my mouth with antiseptic mouth wash... *Screams why meeeeee!*
GOS is in a bad mood... I rang him to say come look at the wall.. *Only downstairs in his music room* as was pleased with it besides the staining coming through again.. must be something in the brick? *Which is annoying and has stumped me so far!* But thought we could discuss it...*As in .. maybe I could reseal the wall again* .... well boy was I wrong! I promptly got told that all I do is complain, would have been easier if he had done it.. and to leave it and he will do it! *Wanders off feeling really unloved :((*
Just cooked his food.. now going to finish my cleaning.. as I had the music on the sky and GOS turned it over to watch his racing.. and now has gone back down below... Maybe he will come up again when he wants feeding.
Now you know why I ramble so much!! I don't just have a wall I have a house to do my Shirley Valentine on!
Going to do some more cleaning... Such joy!
BBL.............
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Nearly 7 pm
Fed up.. *Don't want to talk about it...:((*
This is one person who really does some blogging... crafty stuff and something about Candy... *Me thinking it was chocolate* But I believe it is crafting candy... looks good though...
Well must be time to do the dinner... I have done most of the painting.. but of course another coat is needed... *Will find it really hard to move if I have to wear anymore*
Dining room area is all clean... Lounge area is all clean.. done the hallways... and kitchen floor.. tomorrow I want to do the kitchen cupboards.. and utility room... hoping I will still find time to do the washing .. ironing.. mow the lawn and weed the flower beds... *Superwoman.. yeah I wish*
Might just do myself chop and wedges... GOS... well. not sure really what to cook without the thought of getting my head bitten off... *Wonder how much I would lose weight wise then... my brains must way loads!*
BBL...
If you could be anyone in the world.. who would it be and why?
I think I would like to be GOS.. cause he has someone that loves him no matter how much he shouts... and well can do what he likes and get dinner cooked etc... Not bad!
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Nearly 8.00 pm
I am showered again.. so gone is Yeti 3!... Tooth/gum still hurting.. can't stop sneezing and have a headache and starting to ache all over..... yep the day is just getting better and better. *Oh is it Swine Flu ! ..Nah will be negative energy that is floating around the house*
Dinner is on... so that is one thing.. just not sure how I am going to eat mine... *One way to lose weight I guess... *
So hungry now... *Now I have got over my anger*
Daughter might have someone to swap her shift at work... *Whhoooo hoooo* It does mean that she will have to work 10 straight days..but she is young.. she can take it! *So is there a god.. oh no... now I have said that.. something else will happen!*
Had email from the said Father's Lady Friend. I sent her one.. did I say.. just to clarify things... and she sent me a nice email back... Think she might be a little worried.. but then again I would!!
Going to watch the box.. see what is on... Maybe Come Dine With Me... I like that... *Yes it is official I am a bore!*
*Runs to kitchen to make ice-cream... yes the SW Free one.. will help to numb the gum... hopefully*
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11.10 pm
Gave in and took a couple of tablets for my mouth... starting to feel a bit better.. still got headache.. so hoping it will kick in for that too soon!
Still got the dishes to do.. *Bah* Thought GOS might suggest he do them after being mean.. *Silly me*
Total Synstodate... 44 out of 105
B: Rice, yogurt, nutmeg
L: Apple pear
D: Pork Chop.. roasted veg jacket spud and LCL Cheese
AT:3 nectarines.. banana
HA: 1 x Milk LCLCheese HB:Pork Chop...2 slices of ham
Not sure where the weeks are going.. but as long as I am still losing weight.. I guess I shouldn't care... *But then whats the point of being a slim old age pensioner when you can't wear the trendy stuff*
*Mmm... maybe not!!*
Have been messing around with some widgets today.. and have been looking to see if there is a way to set up a recipe section... *Still working on it .. but it won't beat me!
I was saying to myself today.. NOPE.. don't get on the scales.. but I did.. and it read...00.11lb 6 oz... *Up down up down.*
Still no news on change of day off for Daughter... *Starting to stress me out now*
Had a total binge out last night..*Don't know what happened*
Total Syns todate... 20.5 out of 105 and we are only on Wednesday!
Might just have some fruit for breakfast.....*Really missed not having any in.. why is healthy food cost so much*
List of things I have to try and get through this week..
Weed some of the garden
Mow lawn
Clean boys out
Change spare beds
Hoover top lounge
Re-skim lounge wall and paint
Make cards for 18th birthday
*That will do for now*
But feeling so tired.. these darn hot flushes are starting to drive me mad and have noticed in the evening my darn bones ache... *I don't want to get old*
Must pull myself together!
BBL............................
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OMG!!! 4.35pm
Where has the time gone!!...
Nothing prepared for dinner either... no idea what I want.. might do spag bol that is quick and easy.
When we went out yesterday GOS and I got this bag of plaster... well I kid you not.. by the time I mixed it put it on my hawk.. got up the ladder and put it on my trowel to put on the wall it was nearly set.. I got one sweep across the wall and that was it... not like UK plaster where you can wet it and smooth it over either... *Total disaster... just hoping I can sand it down...more dust!! Oh and I will look like a Yeti.. hate being covered in dust!*
I can't believe it... so gutted.. wanted that all sanded down today so I can get on with painting it in the morning and then getting my house back in order..*Bah*
Food front isn't going well today... just had an apple... I need to drink more.. *Wine would be good and into a real drunken stupor at the moment the way that wall has made me feel...I tell you Shirley Valentines wall wouldn't have done that to her!!*
My hair feels like straw...today isn't turning out as planned. *But still must think thin*
Was wondering today.. do people think my rambling are bizzare.. cause really they might be normal.. I mean we all have odd thoughts and what is an odd thought anyway... I mean ... if I had told you 100 years ago *Not that you were around then or I for that fact* that you would be sat with a keyboard and screen and typing to people all over the world... that is bizzare!
I have just been informed that my father's lady friend is coming to visit... Mmm now where do I put her... Do I allow her to stay in my father's room? What if she doesn't want to? Well I will just make beds and hope for the best. Might tell him I have put light senor alarms round the house.. so not to wonder around ...*Hehehe.. oh is that mean?*
Nice to notice that I have had the odd message left on the side panel... doesn't make me feel so alone... *Puts hand to brow and lifts head looking all lost*
I knew I should have been in television...Drama Queen no doubt GOS would say!
Well sitting here on my butt isn't going to get that wall done now is it... So glad really you can't see me... here I am .. white dusty hair... white vest top and red cut off trousers that are too big and red crocs!! *Not attractive I tell you* Oh and this darn plaster stuff down my chest and a dusty hand print on my butt..
*Sneeze.. sneeze..* Time to clean up...
BBL..................
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5.10 pm
Just had a thought... Are bat wing tops back in fashion? *As was thinking about dinner ladies arms and what best way to hide them than in a batwing top!* Ahh I remember those days... even remember rara skirts... not that I ever had the legs to wear them.... Some of my school friends did... *Hate them all .. hate them do you hear me hate hate hate.... Oooo wonder if most of them still look good...?*
I did remember a few years ago seeing one girl from school... in fact was hard to recongise her... she was walking along the sea front with a push chair and another child holding on.. she looked shattered.. worn and well dragged through a hedge backwards... *Was mean of me to revel in that moment.. but I AM human.. well mostly* She had dark rings round her eyes.. crows feet wrinkles...she looked a wreck... and I thought back to how she was before .. at school.. the pretty girl.. everyone wanted to look like... slim.. lovely hair.. sparkling eyes.. lovely smile.. attracted people.. *Like flies to s**t.. opps sorry!* And now there she was... worn out.. then I thought.. I wonder what life had thrown at her... my feeling of self pride for not looking like that soon passed and turned to pity as such. She could have had a terrible few years and that made me feel rather sad... *But it didn't last and I went off feeling better about myself!*
I guess what I am saying is... make the most of what you have as you never know when it will be gone!... I am sure we have all had better times.. but then doens't mean we are not again... so keep smiling...
*Oh all that thinking has made me hungry.. *
Still not done my dance for GOS.. you know the sexy one I was on about.. .. *was thinking of Pole Dancing again... but not sure my wrists could cope with it.. let alone the pole...might have to give it more thought*
BBL..............
I have to make GOS ice cream today.. *Sulks*
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7.30 ish pm
Well all showered .. spag bol is on.. thin pasta is on.. and I thought I would nip here.. just while it is cooking...
Ouch... I sneezed earlier and pulled a muscle in my back.. *Now that is a sign of old age*
Oh brother on phone!
BBL...
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2.57 am
I know... what am I still doing up! Was watching the box and it got me thinking.. *Dangerous I know!*... but was thinking to why we allow ourselves to get overweight.. insecurity..something to hide behind.. lack of confidence.. being told that your not good enough... there are so many reasons...
Having been sent a photo of myself prior to my 4 stone weight loss.. it does really upset me. How could I have allowed myself to get like that? Why allow myself to get like that even! I am not going to come up with excuses.. which I know I have... but have now realised it is all down to self worth.
No one has a right to make us feel that we have no right to be who we are.. or feel how we do... but some still have powers above that manage to drag you down. Myself.. sadly never having a good relationship with my biological mother and throughout the years.. it has affected me deeply and still does. It wasn't till I was talking to a good friend that it really made me think.... I have spent my whole life worry about what others think of me... I had always been told that what ever I did or do was never good enough... always trying to please... so no wonder I never have had a good opinion of myself.
My whole life.... and what a waste that is... I know our past is what makes us who we are today... but those are years... many years that I will never get back.... My friend is very confident.. and I have to say... she is wonderful... she has spoken to me on my good days and bad days... and she never lies to me...and I have the utmost respect for her. It was talking to her...that makes me think... or should I say think more.
One day I have to cut these painful ties from my past to move forward...and I feel this is one of the reasons I have for many years tried to hide behind... but I am going to try to stop hiding... and learn to be and love me! *Not going to be easy.. but I will try most things once...*
I am glad that I have taken the step to change my life... and often when people take step forward ... they do a lot of self discovery... also sometimes partners don't like seeing change... they react not always in a good way to start with. But I think we have to remember why we are wanting to change our lives... and who we are doing it for... Me it is for me... just for me.
Ahh well.. enough serious rambling...*Going to practice some sexy moves before I perform for GOS*
Again woken by my tummy... seems that every few months it has a flare up and takes a few weeks to settle down...
Trying to be good and not place myself on the scales lol... not sure how long that is going to last though! The lovely birds are still twittering away.. I am sure they have also camped outside our bedroom window and sing their loudest just to annoy me in the morning.
Pleased to see that it has been raining during the night...hopefully may save some of the grass that is playing dead in the garden! I am not sure if today it will rain again as one moment the sun is poking it's head out and then the dark clouds appear. To be honest would be nice to have a day of chilly weather. *Might help with the hot flushes!!*
Hopefully going out today to get some food shopping done.. *No, of course I don't enjoy it... oddly enough why is it men think women love food shopping?* but it is great to have fruit in to eat and not have to struggle to think what to cook for dinner! Last night I put a chicken curry on, *It didn't suit me!* and it has been in the slow cooker all night so should be lovely and tender for later on this evening.
GOS is downloading and the net now is soooooooooooooo slow!
Brrr.. it is actually rather chilly out there! Just been to give the boys some treats.. also noticed a darn molehill!! *Please tell me it isn't staying!* Last time they trashed my lawn..
Going to try and finish the wall today... need to sand it down now and see what it looks like...and then hopefully paint it!
Serves me right doesn't it.. just got on the scales.. and it says 00.12 lb 4 oz... *Think I need to sleep more*
I need to keep tighter reign on my food diary I think....So through out the day.. I will keep one section of what I eat in bold...
B: L: D: Chicken Curry and rice followed by two tubs of home made cinnamon ice cream... *Lush!*
I think I will start a recipe section..*Gee your full of good ideas lol... now just have to figure out how to do it!
AT: 1 pear, 3 small bananas, 2 apricots, and 2 nectarines!
HA: 1 x Milk
HB: Chicken
SYNS (1.5) = 40gm plain crisps 8 syns = 9.5
Brackets are from the previous day(s) so I have a running total.. there that should keep me on track!
Oh.. what to do.. go for a nap or sand the wall down... Mmmm *wavers hands in the air* will drink my coffee first and then decide.
There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one."
How we should all think before we speak.. of course me being me.. I always do! *Yes because I am perfect.. Mmmm*
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1.35 pm
Going to be going out soon.. thought I would look at tomorrows HORRORSCOPE.. see what it has in store for me...
July 08, 2009
You may be weary of sharing so much emotional intensity. Or, perhaps, you just long for a vacation from your own romantic attachments. Either way, the Moon's entry into your private 12th House today amplifies your need to be alone or to keep your feelings to yourself. Don't worry about how others might respond to your desire for solitude. They will be happier once you return from your little retreat more relaxed and refreshed.
Oh.. is that good or not.. I will decide tomorrow.
*Told you sleeping was good for me!!* I got up and re weighed myself and hey presto 00.10 lb 8 oz!!!!! I know it won't last as I have to eat today.. but waiting till we go out and I can have some fruit.. ooo I want fruit !!
*Mmmm... I seem to have lost my colour option on this blog... what is a woman to do!!*
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7.50ish pm
Nope..still no colour option *Screams loudly* Maybe it will be back tomorrow and it is just this post.
I survived the shopping trip... I need to get dishwashing liquid... yes cause the dead dishwasher is still playing dead. Mind you .. GOS still hasn't looked at it... *I do.. I look at it and swear and curse*
So hence I got back from shopping and had to unload it all... then wash up and clean my kitchen... then.. *This is while GOS is sat watching telly.. yes I know!! can you believe it!* cook him his eggs on toast!
I was at this point starving having not had anything to eat all day... *I told you that earlier are you not paying attention*
Off I went to my room with.. are you ready for this.. it is shocking!!
A pear, 3 small bananas, 2 nectarines and 2 apricots and of course my diet free caffiene free coke. *What a pig.. but I do have two meals to make up for today don't I*
Can't make my mind up if I prefer my deep thoughts to be bold or italic.. might do both... *Yes.. cause I can!*
Still no sign of daughter getting someone to do her shift at work... *I will send out thoughts that they are all really sick with the runs on their days off now if they dont' help her out*
She is so set on coming and I don't want her to lose her job over it...I am sure by law that she is entitled to holiday pay... but they will no doubt say she is.. but not unless authorised... We will see what her line manager comes up with... so all keep your fingers crossed for me!
The curry is smelling just wonderful...I can't make my mind up if I want brown rice or white with it..either or.. but brown takes longer to cook....
*Got an older.. well one I haven't been able to get into till now... shorter nighty out.. it has a short gown with it too....In a lovely cream colour with a satin pattern stitched on it... might do a dance to entice GOS later...either that or will give him a heart attack!* He will probably look at me and say... "Arent' you cold woman.. go get some clothes on"
*Slurps at diet coke* It is no good I have to go eat... I am hungry.... oh yeah.. I am going to make some ice-creammmmmm!!
BBL...
*Walks off practicing dance moves for later on...shimmy.. shimmy.. dip.. jump up..hair flick...*
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11.35 pm
Just finished the washing up!! Bahh... but I did get new gloves... nice pink ones .. but they never last me long.
Dinner was wonderful.... I will write that above and even put some pictures in.. so you can drool at how nice my dinner was!!
Yay.. figured out what I had done... doh! *But not going to admit to doing anything ..as it is back again!*
Tonight.. well it is nearly over.. but thought I would just come and put those photos on...a friend of mine might be reading this from work and I know she will be drooling when she sees the ice-cream..... *Yes I did really enjoy it!*
It is a SW free ice cream but also works out syn free on Weight Watchers I am sure!
Off to watch Come Dine With Me... would love to do that I think.. but I would probably be lumbered with a load of idiots... *Well they always do one lovely person (Me) and the others are prats!!*
Well good night all... I wonder what tomorrow holds...
*Hopes she gets up out of bed an leaves the extra pounds on the sheets*
I need some time to digest it... yes of course I have weighed myself...just give me a minute...
3.1/2 lb loss... so that now takes me to 00.11 lb 8 oz... OMG that is amazing!! I am now official slimmer than I have been in about 9 years!
*Does backflips round the office, then lands in a heap in the corner after hitting the wall.. but is still laughing and full of the joys of spring!*
Could it now be after all these months of going up and down a few pound that I am on my second wind of weight loss.... do you think I can do another great jump and get down even more?
So now OWL is... *Official Weight Loss.. keep up!* = 4 stone 2 lb 8 oz
I am now going to go for my 4 1/2 stone weight loss now.. so that means 4.5 lbs to lose... so bring it on!!!!! *Oh dear.. sound like a right rough football fan.. get it together girl*
See I told you I would find something positive today to be pleased about... My goodness.. I have done it! I lost all that weigh so quickly prior to Christmas and got so close to the 4 stone.. then since then I have been going up and down with half a stone even with being so good and exercising... but surpassed that now... woooohhoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!
Well it also goes to show you... I didn't exercise last week... I ate carefully as I do each week... I even had chocolate.. so what is going on? We are all different.. maybe my body is now saying.. yes time to lose weight again. After all... we do have to wait for our bodies to catch up with what we want to do...just mine too nearly 7 months!!! *Keep thinking if my darn body kept up with me how much slimmer I would be now.. but not for a want of trying... told you my body was even against me*
I wonder if a positive note every day would be good... also wonder if it would inspire others to carry on...
Today's Positive Thought...Believe in yourself, as you can always do what you aim to in time!
Anyway I have to do the wall today... but I did take a anti allergy tablet yesterday and still feel like I have been drugged and want to sleep... so may go have a nap then crack on... I may even dream of being slim!
*Was thinking about where do I think this weight has come off from this week... decolletage and my upper arms...*
To be honest I don't care at the moment I am sooooooooooooooooooo pleased I have passed my 4 stone barrier....!!!
Really tired now.. off to nap... BBL
*Slides off with the biggest grin you can ever imagine*
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No nap yet.. people keep talking to me on MSN... *Ahh to be popular*
Had a quick look at my HORRORSCOPE...
July 06, 2009 Combative Mars in steady Taurus crosses swords today with your two key planets, Jupiter and Neptune, increasing the chance for you to get drawn into an unnecessary argument. But instead of listening to logic, you're tempted to let your deeds speak for you as you stubbornly refuse to cooperate with others. You may believe you're making your point while others see you acting like a spoiled child. Remember, passive aggression is not as effective as honesty and direct action.
Why so glum..... going back to bed!!
Oh will have to see what tomorrow's says now.. grrr...
July 07, 2009 It might seem as if you are being coerced to set aside your personal judgment and be a follower today with the Lunar Eclipse in your 11th House of Groups. If you are part of a team at work, you may feel isolated when your plan differs from everyone else's. Follow your instincts now; it's important for you to do what feels right and not succumb to any peer pressure.
*Might not if it is someone trying to force feed me with chocolate!*
Night all.. as it is morning !!
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4.30 pm
I have cleared the area.. scraped the wall down.. sanded it down and just given it a light skim but we are out of product.. grrr!! So will have to wait and see what it is like then give i t alight sanding and go from there! Had to clean my tools prior to use as GOS doesn't always do them how I like them done and then they are left for months on end with crap on them!
Daughter has a job interview tomorrow... so going to keep my fingers crossed that she gets it... She already works for RAC but that is a temping job and I would so like to know that she is settled... with a continuous wage coming in. You know what theses agencies are like. It is about time the good luck started shining down on our family!
The weather is rather unpredicatable today... *Little like my mind!* one minute we have sunshine then next we have rain! Good for the garden though.
GOS still has a bad back.. but he did manage to wash a few things up for me today while I skimmed the wall. But that is the last of the washing up liquid and he didn't seem pleased that I asked to go out and get some shopping! *Sadly we do have to eat every week*
I think I might play the Sims 3 for a while.. not played that in ages.. trouble is it is sooooooooo addictive...
Managed to decide chicken for dinner.. but still not what to do with it.. May do a Rogan Josh... with some rice...
Daughter went to sainsbury's to see if they did the Weight Watchers Crystal Jellies and she said nope they don't! *Typical...*
Sim's 3 here I come.. *Wonder if it is more normal in that world than it is in mine!*
Now... I am going to start the day with WI results... so you don't get bored of me say.. this morning.... blah de blah... So here goes!
Tuesday WI: 00.00lbs. 4 oz Wooohooooo...
Yes, I know I shouldn't get excited but another 4 oz and then I will have reached my four stone! Well I already have but I wanted to go from a certain weight point on this eating regime, yes sounds confusing ... but that I am!
*Note to self: Maybe thinking thin really does work.. must do more testing!*
Hay fever is back... but little man on the plasma telly told us last night.. said the count would be high. I am thinking (Which I know is dangerous) but should I take a hay fever tab and spend most of the day feeling tired or just go with the runny nose itching eyes..wheezy chest etc... Doh going to have to take a tablet... I know I will be sleepy for two days again! Oh well can't put up with this...... here goes!!!!
Right, that done...can we go back to celebrating my loss so far? Doh... only me (and you if you are listening to me) that know. GOS doesn't really notice.. just says I am leaving him! I am just gaining myself back. Maybe he should watch out!
Asked again how my POINTS were going last night... I got a smirk... let's leave it at that... I said well he should be worried when I stop asking and he replied "Ah you won't" Well I might!!! (says shaking her head!!)
Gees been 3 mins since I took this tablet.. how long does it take to work!
Now what have I to do today...
Checked email.... nothing!
Still waiting for Bristol SW Manager to get back to me... should I be pushy and ask for her email or just wait? Maybe wait a bit longer... oh I hate waiting...
Oh yeah.. must do plants... when tabs kick in.
Ahh also exercise... go for the burn..
Have breakfast... not sure what to have yet?
Clean my desk!
Go twitter.. ahh now I like that.....
BBL...
*Note to self: Wonder if local honey really does help with hay fever?*
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Ohhhhhhh so tired.. did 30 mins March DVD and 30 mins Cross Training. What is the matter with me? Why am I doing this to myself. I must be some nutter to keep torturing myself...I dream of being slim and laying on a lounger eating cream cakes...
Nah.. don't like them very much so .. what else...Pizza.. nah... mint chocolate chip ice-cream.. now I am talking... Leave me alone a moment while I dream... go on shoo!!
*Spends 1 minute dreaming of eating ice-cream.. the chocolate melting as it runs down the cone...Mmmmm*
Right enough of that! back to reality!
Darn the death of my beloved yesterday.. so inconsiderate... I have been stood at that blasted sink for ages! Guess I should now wash as I go...either that or get a slave... now that could send me off on one of my tangents.. but no.. I will remain firm.
Breakfast:
2 pears...(I was in the garden working!!)
Lunch:
Half of my quicheI made yesterday.. was going to save some for GOS.. but well I was hungry and I know he won't like it.. so I enjoyed it all!! so really that is a half HA
*Note to self.. must season quiche more next time and thinner base* Right now that the torture is over with and I have eaten, I had best crack on with the darn dishes in the the dead dishwasher and dry the one others up.. then shower and make GOS a quick sandwich and take it to him.. he is fitting a sink and bet he is starving bless him.
We do have this unspoken love for one another.. well there are times we say.. Love you.. I would say it more if it got me points!!
Anyway.. can't sit here all day.. things to do.
BBL
*Note to self... remind yourself why you are exercising is for the good of your health and self image, plus makes you more pleasing on others poor eyes!*
Kitchen all done!! Phew at last.. yes I still want a little slave.. maybe one that will follow me around and attend to my every task I set... now wouldn't that be fun.. of course after the washing.. ironing... cooking etc is done!
Sat here now with a lovely cup of coffee and really enjoying it! Curry is on.. have done a chicken curry along with a potato and tom with onion curry as a side dish.
I am still at a quandary as to how people find other people on these blogs .. I am sure I will figure it out!
*Mental note to self....Still wondering.. just out of interest to weigh all my food and total it up and see if we do actually eat the same weight amount of food a day*
It is still lovely outside and did think of going for a dip.. but by the time I did that lazy broken down dishwashers job.. I don't feel so much like it..... OOOo Michael Boublay is on the radio...such a fantastic voice! (Is that how you spell his name.. I dunno)
Anyway.. have to go and finish the dinner before GOS has a hissy fit and moans he is hungry!
*Wanders off to the kitchen thinking.. geesh I feel tired.. and did I do all on my list today?*
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Just awoken from my slumber... oh have to feed the boys.. will be right back!
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Woke in a right crabby mood...I am the first to admit it! Had to do washing up... again grrr... darn plates and pans... GOS said he was going to do them.. yeah like hell will freeze over first! My poor hands..
*Note to self: Must find gloves!*
Daughter has booked her ferry over to us for her birthday... and got the timings all wrong!! Don't go there... I am going to stay out of it.. before I get my head bitten off!
Well.. boys are fed and watered...I am all agitated and want chocolate!!
So might console myself with a hot chocolate drink and go watch some telly... Oooo Ghost Whisper...he died.. the hubby.. have to see what happens next!
Things to do tomorrow:
Dig up old radishes..
Weed garden.
Water in new plants with food.
Ironing... oh in this day and age all material should be iron free!
Wash up!!! Cuss GOS for not looking at dead dishwasher
Work out.
Dinner:
Chicken Curry with white rice and potato/tom/onion/curry
I have made some WW jellies so might have some of those.. 4 in all ... wonder if they have set.. will have with some 0% fromage frais... oh such joys I have!
Going to check...
Oh total syns for today...
Will fill in tomorrow.. drat no chocolate in!!
The Box Tip:
People who eat healthy, mostly unprocessed foods, including fruit, vegetables, whole grains, legumes, and limited amounts of lean animal protein, often find that they can eat as much as they want without gaining weight. If they are switching from a diet containing lots of processed foods, they find that they can eat more yet consume fewer calories -- and they lose weight.
Got up early today... darn birds happily tweeting away! I know can't eat all of them with fries.. but would love to try!! No no... I love them really they do make me smile or is that grin.. nah I like them really. ... So as I ran downstairs.. yes took the scales down to the other bathroom.. the thought crossed my mind.. "Have I reached my 4 stone loss yet"
Skidding into the bathroom I checked to make sure both blinds were down...didn't want to scare any neighbours.. (they can't see in anyway, but just in case someone had a telescopic lens on the eyeballs.. down they went...) threw off my pjs, unhinged myself from my crocs and tapped the scales.
Oh yeah.. all the mod cons.. electric scales for ME.. just thank god they don't speak! Or in my case scream!
Disappointment I am afraid..back to..00.2.6 oz!!! Damn it damn it damn it.. *I wonder if air in the body makes us lighter or heavier... probably neither* Might be one question I could put to mythbusters... no it isn't that is it.. it is something science... anyway...
Went to sulk on my pc for while.
Had to whiz into town, a neighbour took me.. needed to post some greetings cards... well Father's Day ones... 3 of them actually ... and some that were ordered...
Came back to find other half was up!!! Yes.. well he has been going to bed later.. so I guess I should not moan he is in bed half of the next day!
Got two chops out for dinner...
Did I have breakfast.. ahh yeah... darn fromage frais... only turned out to the 20% fat one... I felt like a child who could have thrown herself on the floor screaming...
I got over it and thought oh well can't get back to the shops so had that with the rest of my all bran and some pineapple. Rather tasty to be honest.. but I am sure I could feel my hips expanding as I ate it... Nah maybe I am just being parinoid.
Sat at pc for a while watching a film... Autumn... a supposed horror... don't ask.. ok I will tell you.. I waited and waited for something exciting to happen.. yes on the edge of me seat.. almost biting my nails and the end credits came up.. ahh well ...just glad I didn't go the flicks.. pictures what ever they call it nowadays to see it!
Been feeling a little flu like last couple of days so I am now laying in bed doing this.. naughty I know.. but how luxurious it is.. I just need some strong strapping men with fans and maybe one to massage my feet and feed me grapes!! I don't want much do I.. and I am not going to get much either!!
Ooo.. I had lunch.. 2 danish malted brown pieces of bread with vlfc and herbs and tomato with a yogurt ....geesh I lead an exciting life.
Anyway... my dream today would be to at least get to lose those darn couple of pounds as my weigh in day is on Monday... no cross trainer for me today...I am sick damn it.. what do you want blood!!!
I had to get up to go the loo only a few minutes ago and want to go again.. I tell you my body is at war with me... it is ... really it is.. okay I am feeling lazy!
Update later.... want to go play with those widgets or gadgetmsahthinybob ..... watch me mess this whole thing up now!
*Think thin.. think thin*
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Back and have been messing with this for hours now.. and doesn't look any better... Maybe someone will be by soon and let me know what they think...
Oh what!! A woman of my age wants to know if it looks ok.. daft sod. That is like trying to squeeze into a size 10 dress and thinking it fits.. pfft it doesn't matter.
Anyway.. I did wonder if those chops were defrosted yet... as will have to go cook something... I think it will be chops (Are you surprised!!) with some roasted vegetable.
You never know I might get to see some telly after dinner...I do get to watch telly if I want to watch Discovery all the time. Don't get me wrong it can be great... but I know I am going to die.. so why depress myself and stress myself out thinking the sun is going to kill us all.
Ok .. ramble over with.
*Wanders off wondering if I am turning into one of those Grumpy Old Women?*
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Oooo... dinner was lovely... you know I am a good cook... well nothing like blowing my own trumpet is there!! Roasted vegetables.. carrot, parsnip, red pepper, courgette and crispy roasted spuds with a nice pork chop... followed by pineapple and FF!! Are you impressed?
Yeah so was I till I spoilt it with some crunchy fries, but not going to moan about it as I have been so good all week! And I am poorly.. what you forgotten already!! Pfft!
Back in bed and thinking thank goodness for laptops! Don't think I could have sat in my office any longer... ooo don't I sound posh.. an office in my house.. well it is true I tell.. it is!!
Ahh . ... will I reach my goal this week....it is either the 2lb.6 oz loss or waking up and diving into a new slimline size 10 pair of jeans... haha that even made me chuckle. What your not laughing? You would if you could see me!
Drat.. most of my favourite programmes are coming to a close.. what am I going to do with myself?? I mean.. the end of Brothers and Sisters.. Ghost Whisper is about to come to an end...Waterloo Road has already finished. I feel that my telly is picking on me for not watching more Discovery!
Anyway.. guess I should stop nattering...and maybe rest my poor bones.. I was trying to be funny earlier by telling my father that I had flu like symptoms.. but the daft thing was I kept having this urge to fly like a bird!! He didn't get it.. my humour is wasted.. wasted I tell you.
