Yep you guessed it... I have been awoken with a tingling in my lip.. so toodled off to the bathroom to discover that my lower lip has been bitten!!! *I was blessed with fuller lips.. but this is ridiculous...*
After getting a wet flannel.. tried to get some sleep but the thought of getting bitten again and trying to fight with the paranioa of being bitten on the tongue or something and not being able to breath! *It can happen you know!!* I must have dozed for about half hour and got woken again with my finger throbbing... I decided to get up in the end as my left forearm was throbbing too... only got to the downstairs bathroom and looked in the mirror! Quasimodo was looking back at me *Sigh.. yes on the bridge of my nose.. my lower lip and the right side of my chin....hangs head in shame and thinks of ways to ease it*
So I set on another quest of how to ease prevent and kill mosquitos! *People would pay thousands for a lip like mine at the moment.. no puckering up.. *
First page I came across said to rub banana skin on the area... now at the time the arm was swelling and burning and stinging... so I did this.. and hey presto.. that has eased it for a while.. also on the finger... tried the lip.. but that has just annoyed it even more!
They say not to break the skin with scratching.. cut your nails
*Any slight tingle now on my body I am getting paranoid and I am now feeling very tired, but too scared to go back to bed incase I get bitten again and again and again.. I guess I could always tell people I am really a size 10 and my whole body has been bitten.. what do you think?*
Another site said to use bicarb mixed to a paste.. have used that on sunburns... but doesn't prevent does it!! But does work on sunburns .. so remember that if you are an avid sun worshiper!
Now another said to eat lots of garlic... one said to spray with lavender, lemon oil...that citronella doesn't work..
They say not to wear dark colours.. *Yeah the fat girl loves wearing bright colours to draw attention to herself.. NOT* Also make sure that you are completely covered.. *Like I would go out in a bikini anyway!* No.. no it does say.. all arms and legs covered.. put thick trousers and top on and tuck the trousers in some socks *Ahh see now that sounds really attractive doesn't it*
Believe me I have tried most things as when we lived in Germany.. I was also eaten alive there... like this.. and haven't been bitten like this here before!!
It also says that they like to bite people who are over weight... *Yeah pick on the fat people why don't they... *
GOS sometimes get bitten and there he was last night sprawled out.. really hot.. nearly naked.. but no.. they go for me!!
The sky has gone really dark outside.. I have just had to get the washing in which has had a short sharp shower on it.. *Not turning out to be my day is it* Just loaded other washing I had waiting to dry into the dryer .. so might crack on with some ironing in a while...
*Whispers.. dare not say what next.. as something else bad always happens... * No I don't always look on the dark side of things.. I do try to think of positivity.. but it seems to be one thing after another... why is that? All I want is a happy life... *Don't we all I guess*
Have been chatting away to an old friend just now on MSN.. wow some of the times and laughs we had together. Ahh those were the days... how you had no worries in the world but when was the next night out.. what to wear, who was going out etc.... The 80's music... ahh memories...
Again woken by my tummy... seems that every few months it has a flare up and takes a few weeks to settle down...
Trying to be good and not place myself on the scales lol... not sure how long that is going to last though! The lovely birds are still twittering away.. I am sure they have also camped outside our bedroom window and sing their loudest just to annoy me in the morning.
Pleased to see that it has been raining during the night...hopefully may save some of the grass that is playing dead in the garden! I am not sure if today it will rain again as one moment the sun is poking it's head out and then the dark clouds appear. To be honest would be nice to have a day of chilly weather. *Might help with the hot flushes!!*
Hopefully going out today to get some food shopping done.. *No, of course I don't enjoy it... oddly enough why is it men think women love food shopping?* but it is great to have fruit in to eat and not have to struggle to think what to cook for dinner! Last night I put a chicken curry on, *It didn't suit me!* and it has been in the slow cooker all night so should be lovely and tender for later on this evening.
GOS is downloading and the net now is soooooooooooooo slow!
Brrr.. it is actually rather chilly out there! Just been to give the boys some treats.. also noticed a darn molehill!! *Please tell me it isn't staying!* Last time they trashed my lawn..
Going to try and finish the wall today... need to sand it down now and see what it looks like...and then hopefully paint it!
Serves me right doesn't it.. just got on the scales.. and it says 00.12 lb 4 oz... *Think I need to sleep more*
I need to keep tighter reign on my food diary I think....So through out the day.. I will keep one section of what I eat in bold...
B: L: D: Chicken Curry and rice followed by two tubs of home made cinnamon ice cream... *Lush!*
I think I will start a recipe section..*Gee your full of good ideas lol... now just have to figure out how to do it!
AT: 1 pear, 3 small bananas, 2 apricots, and 2 nectarines!
HA: 1 x Milk
HB: Chicken
SYNS (1.5) = 40gm plain crisps 8 syns = 9.5
Brackets are from the previous day(s) so I have a running total.. there that should keep me on track!
Oh.. what to do.. go for a nap or sand the wall down... Mmmm *wavers hands in the air* will drink my coffee first and then decide.
There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.
The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.
He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one."
How we should all think before we speak.. of course me being me.. I always do! *Yes because I am perfect.. Mmmm*
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1.35 pm
Going to be going out soon.. thought I would look at tomorrows HORRORSCOPE.. see what it has in store for me...
July 08, 2009
You may be weary of sharing so much emotional intensity. Or, perhaps, you just long for a vacation from your own romantic attachments. Either way, the Moon's entry into your private 12th House today amplifies your need to be alone or to keep your feelings to yourself. Don't worry about how others might respond to your desire for solitude. They will be happier once you return from your little retreat more relaxed and refreshed.
Oh.. is that good or not.. I will decide tomorrow.
*Told you sleeping was good for me!!* I got up and re weighed myself and hey presto 00.10 lb 8 oz!!!!! I know it won't last as I have to eat today.. but waiting till we go out and I can have some fruit.. ooo I want fruit !!
*Mmmm... I seem to have lost my colour option on this blog... what is a woman to do!!*
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7.50ish pm
Nope..still no colour option *Screams loudly* Maybe it will be back tomorrow and it is just this post.
I survived the shopping trip... I need to get dishwashing liquid... yes cause the dead dishwasher is still playing dead. Mind you .. GOS still hasn't looked at it... *I do.. I look at it and swear and curse*
So hence I got back from shopping and had to unload it all... then wash up and clean my kitchen... then.. *This is while GOS is sat watching telly.. yes I know!! can you believe it!* cook him his eggs on toast!
I was at this point starving having not had anything to eat all day... *I told you that earlier are you not paying attention*
Off I went to my room with.. are you ready for this.. it is shocking!!
A pear, 3 small bananas, 2 nectarines and 2 apricots and of course my diet free caffiene free coke. *What a pig.. but I do have two meals to make up for today don't I*
Can't make my mind up if I prefer my deep thoughts to be bold or italic.. might do both... *Yes.. cause I can!*
Still no sign of daughter getting someone to do her shift at work... *I will send out thoughts that they are all really sick with the runs on their days off now if they dont' help her out*
She is so set on coming and I don't want her to lose her job over it...I am sure by law that she is entitled to holiday pay... but they will no doubt say she is.. but not unless authorised... We will see what her line manager comes up with... so all keep your fingers crossed for me!
The curry is smelling just wonderful...I can't make my mind up if I want brown rice or white with it..either or.. but brown takes longer to cook....
*Got an older.. well one I haven't been able to get into till now... shorter nighty out.. it has a short gown with it too....In a lovely cream colour with a satin pattern stitched on it... might do a dance to entice GOS later...either that or will give him a heart attack!* He will probably look at me and say... "Arent' you cold woman.. go get some clothes on"
*Slurps at diet coke* It is no good I have to go eat... I am hungry.... oh yeah.. I am going to make some ice-creammmmmm!!
BBL...
*Walks off practicing dance moves for later on...shimmy.. shimmy.. dip.. jump up..hair flick...*
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11.35 pm
Just finished the washing up!! Bahh... but I did get new gloves... nice pink ones .. but they never last me long.
Dinner was wonderful.... I will write that above and even put some pictures in.. so you can drool at how nice my dinner was!!
Yay.. figured out what I had done... doh! *But not going to admit to doing anything ..as it is back again!*
Tonight.. well it is nearly over.. but thought I would just come and put those photos on...a friend of mine might be reading this from work and I know she will be drooling when she sees the ice-cream..... *Yes I did really enjoy it!*
It is a SW free ice cream but also works out syn free on Weight Watchers I am sure!
Off to watch Come Dine With Me... would love to do that I think.. but I would probably be lumbered with a load of idiots... *Well they always do one lovely person (Me) and the others are prats!!*
Well good night all... I wonder what tomorrow holds...
*Hopes she gets up out of bed an leaves the extra pounds on the sheets*
Did a quick sneak wi again... *My OCD is getting worse!* and it was still at 00.12 lb 8 oz. *Shock ~ Horror*
It is getting warmer already and it is still early. Think I will go clean the boys out... then set to make some ice cream for GOS and I.... That would then be ready within the hour! Great isn't it.
Been having some odd thoughts today...I have been snapping at my GOS and sometimes I think it is due to my own frustration and anger at myself and this isn't fair is it! I need to sit down and give myself
a stiff talking to. Maybe I should be the one called GOS! It can not be easy living with a rambling moaning over weight middle aged woman... who has OCD tendancys and hang ups! I know I wouldn't like it, well I have no choice but to live with myself... but if given it.. I don't think I would want to!
I know each and every one of us has our bad days... maybe I have been a little over the top lately... I do get cross with myself and I do take it out on him... I know we all do this to the ones we love... but it can not be nice as I am not a meek little thing! Think I would want to run if I saw me come looming towards me in a foul mood.
So today I am going to try and set things right! I need to take a longer harder look at myself. I know this dieting has got me down a lot lately with it not really shifting... but I really did think that generally I had been in a better mood. Guess not... so I have to rectify this.
GOS said it is going to be one of the hottest days so far... and the heat makes me crabby.. so I have to be on my bestest behaviour and not upset GOS.
It would be good to see if the same happens to you... Take stock of all the things you don't want to become in your life.. and see if in 10 years time you have! I have noticed this.. things I said I hope never happen to me.. think about it..make some notes and file them away and find them in years to come.. then see if they have!
Anyway... no wise words this morning of humour... going to burn myself outside now and sort the compost and rabbits out!
*Wish me luck*
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12.24 pm
Woooooohhhh just read my horrorscope for today...
July 02, 2009 You are in an emotional flow today, but you might not know where the currents are taking you. Fortunately, it really doesn't matter; what's important is that you are open to experiencing as much in the moment as you can. This is not about escaping from your previous obligations. You still have to handle practical matters when they arise. But the real growth for you now is not obvious to anyone else. It's about what you are feeling in your heart.
Now that is scary!! Wonder what tomorrows says....
July 03, 2009 Your vision seems to capture the imagination of others now, which can lead you into a position of authority. You aren't necessarily yearning to be the boss, yet you may be among the few who actually know what's going on. So, as a member of the community you cannot say no when asked to assume a leadership role. Step up to the plate and play out your part as the person in charge.
Oh.. don't know what that is all about... *dreads to think*
Nice cup of coffee.. thinking about making 2 18th birthday cards today... would like to do something different and special... will have to get my thinking cap on!
Another 20 mins and will see if the ice-cream is done... whooo hoooo!!
If it is nice I will put the recipe on here and a photo!
Sat outside on the decking today... for breakfast...
Breakfast: Vanilla Fromage Frais and a sliced pear.
Milk HA
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Yesterday.. Lunch... pasta thing.. was 1 syn
what did I have for dinner...oh yes.. pork chop hb and wedges.. jelly and pear and ha cheese.
Will add the syns for the 4 jellies now.. so total syns for this week so far is..24.
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Not sure what to do for dinner this evening... will have to think about it.
Only 14 more sleeps and my daughter will be here... can't wait for a big hug and one from my lovely niece too..:))
Things to do..tut keeping me sat here! Be gone with you.. do you hear me.. be gone!
*Skips off to check the ice-cream*
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2.07 pm
Mmmm.. not sure I am getting it right with this ice-maker... I have looked on the net to see what consistency it should be when it comes out of the machine and can't find anything... need to look for more reviews to see ... there must be someone out there who knows....*Looks from side to side and wonders where they are!*
Goodness it is getting hotter and hotter... let me go see what it is...wow 34.4 in the shade! Even the poor cows are huddled under a tree in the shade to keep cool... *Maybe I should go join them*
Got some mince out.. so want to think of something yummy to make with it that is slightly different! *Ideas on a postcard to....*
