Are Painkillers Fattening??

Yes I am backkkkkkkk!!

I am not in pain anymore and I have just thrown myself on the scales and lept off in such dissapointment!!

00.3lb.2oz... that means I have had a gain from 00.11 lb . 8 oz!!! Let us say about 5 lb in two weeks... *S**t C***p B******s*

Well now I am feeling better after 12 painkillers a day and 2 anti biotics and 1 stomach tablets... so are they fattening?

I know I wasn't left with a lot that I could eat as I couldn't open my mouth! But for goodness sake ..... well not going to moan.. I did have some birthday cake that I made for my Daughter... who has gone home now :(

Just going to have to get back on the wagon and lose those pounds now along with the extra stones I want to shed!!]

The weekend with my family went farrrrr to quickly... but it did seem that all I was doing was cooking and cleaning! ... Didn't spend half as much time as I wanted to with Daughter, we didn't even get in the pool at the same time. Also never got any photos.. but I will look at the camera as I am sure Daughter took some!

My lovey niece is with us for two weeks now so we are going to be doing different things every day now...

I thought we could kick start today off with doing the March DVD and then a dip in the pool... maybe a walk later... will have to see!

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20.50 pm

We did the March Dvd.. LM (Niece) was being lazy and not doing all of it.. but we did have a laugh... then we went swimming for about an hour or so....

Got out to make some lunch.. was really nice...

The day has gone really quickly.. and I am still in shock that I have put on so much weight in such a short time!! *Gutted really...*

LM is allowed on the pc to play Sims 3 *think she is addicted to it already!!* then it is off to bed...

We are reading a goosebumps book... The Egg Monster. She is doing really well... we take it in turns to read a page each. I love reading time with her... we snuggle up and really get into the story. I love to do all the sound effects and make her jump.. she then giggles... *She is so much like my lovely departed sister*

Think I will be in bed early tonight myself! Feel worn out.. think all the lack of sleep while in pain with the face/tooth is starting to catch up with me.

Just heard the news.. what is Alan Sugar doing in the houses of parliament!! *Oh maybe we can all get in!* Well maybe this one won't need to steal from the government for his personal use...

Reading time.. may be back later.....

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22.51 pm

Just remembered I haven't put down what I have eaten today... and I do have to start to be strict with myself again don't I!! Tut.. thought you were keeping me on track!!

B: Pineapple, nectarine banana and yogurt

L: Bean and potato soup *Homemade of course!* and ice cream

D: Spag bol... Pork .. HB

Syns..Parm cheese.. 1.5 syns.

HA =
HB = Pork

Workout... Half hour march and swimming!

Total Synergies... 1.5 out of 105



So not bad today eh!! Think I might have some more ice cream as I can dig away at that and it is free!

GOS has taken control of the telly since dinner time and tonight it has been all space things.. over and over again... *Yawn*

Gee I am tired. Then again it is nearly 11.15 pm here!

Oh never told you... my father and GOS looked at the Dishwasher.. and he had not got the right part... so back to washing up in the sink... god help that machine when I do get the right part,.. it is in for a beasting!!


So back tomorrow all... *Must think thin.. think thin woman thin thin thin!*

Not Got That Slimmer Feeling... Whoo oo ooohhh

Yes thought I would title it with a song theme today... *Seems like I have been up for hours.. so maybe I am feeling tired!*

Resisting the urge to get on the scales as not got that feeling I am losing anything this week. *Hangs head down low*

I dont' think I am eating enough and I think I am eating too much fruit! No.. really.. I eat a lot of fruit... and after all it does contain natural sugars and calories. *Wonder if that is what is upsetting my tummy too.. kept waking me again in the night* My goodness.. with my stomach.. night sweats and everything else.. no wonder I am a wreck at the moment!

I was thinking of ways to inspire weight loss... and then came across this... this will make you think!! *It did me!*

BODY FAT

Yes rather nasty isn't it...

Having looked around .. they say that you have to eat less approx 3500 calories a week to lose 1lb of body fat... but this also depends on lean muscle loss as you can also lose that.. which we think is fat loss... but because we are all different.. it doesn't mean that if you cut back 3500 calories you will lose that weight.!! Gets complicated doesn't it.. *So see where I am coming from with this fruit thing.. so much for the government to say.. 5 a day!*

Thought that this was rather a nasty image too.. if you can visualise fat every time you eat.. it might make us eat a little less! *What do you think?*

So I feel I need to revise my eating plan... *Again.. but this is life isn't it* Thing is.. if you look at my eating... there doesn't contain a lot of fat in it.. so if I were to cut out even more fat from that.. what would be left...*So must be the fruit*

But for now.. I have my list of things that I need to crack on with.....



Must finish wall.. so off I go.. *When I have finished my coffee that is!.. stop being so pushy*


But this did make me chuckle...

Ok enough for now.. this isn't get the wall done it is?

BBL...........................

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12.43pm

Painting...first coat on.... waiting for that to dry.. then on goes the next... *Getting hot painting with all these coats on!* Have another wall to paint but that is a deep red.. so waiting till I have done one to do the other.. but just washed part of it down... *Fingers crossed I have enough red paint left*

GOS got up... got his coffee.. took the paint upstairs from the cellar for me and I have not seen him since... in the mean time.. I have painted the wall...done all the washing up.. cleaned the kitchen and now having a cuppa before I get on with the wall again.. then there is a pile of cleaning to do .. not to mention the ironing... *Am I doing something wrong here?*

To top it all off... I have a wisdom tooth half through on the left side lower *Opens mouth wide to show you.. aaarrrrrrhhhhh* and it is getting painful... *Wants to go back to bed!*

Don't have much time to sit and goss... some of us have things to do!!

*Sneeze... sneeze.. darn hayfever.. or is it dust!*

Ooooooooo comments.... I love comments... thank you ANON!

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1.20 pm

Thought I would take a look at my HORRORSCOPE!

July 10, 2009
It's hard to control your dreams, for they seem to overflow right into your waking life, making things even more confusing than they already are. But don't try to justify yourself to anyone today. If you aren't sure how to handle a situation, pull back a bit until you know what to do. Temporarily retreating is wiser now than pretending that you can tell where your fantasies end and reality begins.


Opps... maybe I need to shut up today!! *Drat..drat and double drat* Maybe tomorrow will be better let's see....

July 11, 2009
The Moon's return to your sign can brighten the colors of your dreams and soften the edges of reality. You are lured into believing things that hug dangerously close to the edge of irrationality -- that dividing line between fiction and fact. Some of your beliefs will flip-flop back and forth, so don't put your final answer into writing until you wait and see what happens over the next couple of days.


*Oh no.... does that mean I have to be quiet for a couple of days*

Nah... how can you shut me up!! *No I don't want answers.. like hey there fattie!*

Got toothache... *Sobs.. then looks up to see if you really care*

Going back to my Shirely Valentine wall... bbl....


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3.46 pm

Darn tooth is hurting.. well gum is!! Now also the side of my tongue... I keep washing my mouth with antiseptic mouth wash... *Screams why meeeeee!*

GOS is in a bad mood... I rang him to say come look at the wall.. *Only downstairs in his music room* as was pleased with it besides the staining coming through again.. must be something in the brick? *Which is annoying and has stumped me so far!* But thought we could discuss it...*As in .. maybe I could reseal the wall again* .... well boy was I wrong! I promptly got told that all I do is complain, would have been easier if he had done it.. and to leave it and he will do it! *Wanders off feeling really unloved :((*

Just cooked his food.. now going to finish my cleaning.. as I had the music on the sky and GOS turned it over to watch his racing.. and now has gone back down below... Maybe he will come up again when he wants feeding.

Now you know why I ramble so much!! I don't just have a wall I have a house to do my Shirley Valentine on!

Going to do some more cleaning... Such joy!

BBL.............

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Nearly 7 pm

Fed up.. *Don't want to talk about it...:((*

This is one person who really does some blogging... crafty stuff and something about Candy... *Me thinking it was chocolate* But I believe it is crafting candy... looks good though...

Vikki's Celebration Candy

Well must be time to do the dinner... I have done most of the painting.. but of course another coat is needed... *Will find it really hard to move if I have to wear anymore*

Dining room area is all clean... Lounge area is all clean.. done the hallways... and kitchen floor.. tomorrow I want to do the kitchen cupboards.. and utility room... hoping I will still find time to do the washing .. ironing.. mow the lawn and weed the flower beds... *Superwoman.. yeah I wish*

Might just do myself chop and wedges... GOS... well. not sure really what to cook without the thought of getting my head bitten off... *Wonder how much I would lose weight wise then... my brains must way loads!*

BBL...

If you could be anyone in the world.. who would it be and why?

I think I would like to be GOS.. cause he has someone that loves him no matter how much he shouts... and well can do what he likes and get dinner cooked etc... Not bad!


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Nearly 8.00 pm

I am showered again.. so gone is Yeti 3!... Tooth/gum still hurting.. can't stop sneezing and have a headache and starting to ache all over..... yep the day is just getting better and better. *Oh is it Swine Flu ! ..Nah will be negative energy that is floating around the house*

Dinner is on... so that is one thing.. just not sure how I am going to eat mine... *One way to lose weight I guess... *

So hungry now... *Now I have got over my anger*

Daughter might have someone to swap her shift at work... *Whhoooo hoooo* It does mean that she will have to work 10 straight days..but she is young.. she can take it! *So is there a god.. oh no... now I have said that.. something else will happen!*

Had email from the said Father's Lady Friend. I sent her one.. did I say.. just to clarify things... and she sent me a nice email back... Think she might be a little worried.. but then again I would!!

Going to watch the box.. see what is on... Maybe Come Dine With Me... I like that... *Yes it is official I am a bore!*


*Runs to kitchen to make ice-cream... yes the SW Free one.. will help to numb the gum... hopefully*

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11.10 pm

Gave in and took a couple of tablets for my mouth... starting to feel a bit better.. still got headache.. so hoping it will kick in for that too soon!

Still got the dishes to do.. *Bah* Thought GOS might suggest he do them after being mean.. *Silly me*

Total Syns todate... 44 out of 105

B: Rice, yogurt, nutmeg

L: Apple pear

D: Pork Chop.. roasted veg jacket spud and LCL Cheese



AT: 3 nectarines.. banana



HA: 1 x Milk LCLCheese
HB: Pork Chop...2 slices of ham

Syns ............. 15.5 total

Wednesday... Another one!

Not sure where the weeks are going.. but as long as I am still losing weight.. I guess I shouldn't care... *But then whats the point of being a slim old age pensioner when you can't wear the trendy stuff*

*Mmm... maybe not!!*

Have been messing around with some widgets today.. and have been looking to see if there is a way to set up a recipe section... *Still working on it .. but it won't beat me!

I was saying to myself today.. NOPE.. don't get on the scales.. but I did.. and it read...00.11lb 6 oz... *Up down up down.*

Still no news on change of day off for Daughter... *Starting to stress me out now*

Had a total binge out last night..*Don't know what happened*

Total Syns todate... 20.5 out of 105 and we are only on Wednesday!

B: 2 smal pears + 1 small banana

L: Spag bol Parm cheese 1.5

D: Spag bol Parm cheese 1.5 + SW friendly Rice Pud


AT: fruit erm.. lots...

Crisps 30gm 6

HA: 1 x Milk
HB: pork x2

Syns 29.5 total


Might just have some fruit for breakfast.....*Really missed not having any in.. why is healthy food cost so much*

List of things I have to try and get through this week..

Weed some of the garden

Mow lawn

Clean boys out

Change spare beds

Hoover top lounge

Re-skim lounge wall and paint

Make cards for 18th birthday

*That will do for now*

But feeling so tired.. these darn hot flushes are starting to drive me mad and have noticed in the evening my darn bones ache... *I don't want to get old*

Must pull myself together!

BBL............................

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OMG!!! 4.35pm

Where has the time gone!!...

Nothing prepared for dinner either... no idea what I want.. might do spag bol that is quick and easy.

When we went out yesterday GOS and I got this bag of plaster... well I kid you not.. by the time I mixed it put it on my hawk.. got up the ladder and put it on my trowel to put on the wall it was nearly set.. I got one sweep across the wall and that was it... not like UK plaster where you can wet it and smooth it over either... *Total disaster... just hoping I can sand it down...more dust!! Oh and I will look like a Yeti.. hate being covered in dust!*

I can't believe it... so gutted.. wanted that all sanded down today so I can get on with painting it in the morning and then getting my house back in order..*Bah*

Food front isn't going well today... just had an apple... I need to drink more.. *Wine would be good and into a real drunken stupor at the moment the way that wall has made me feel...I tell you Shirley Valentines wall wouldn't have done that to her!!*

My hair feels like straw...today isn't turning out as planned. *But still must think thin*

Was wondering today.. do people think my rambling are bizzare.. cause really they might be normal.. I mean we all have odd thoughts and what is an odd thought anyway... I mean ... if I had told you 100 years ago *Not that you were around then or I for that fact* that you would be sat with a keyboard and screen and typing to people all over the world... that is bizzare!

I have just been informed that my father's lady friend is coming to visit... Mmm now where do I put her... Do I allow her to stay in my father's room? What if she doesn't want to? Well I will just make beds and hope for the best. Might tell him I have put light senor alarms round the house.. so not to wonder around ...*Hehehe.. oh is that mean?*

Nice to notice that I have had the odd message left on the side panel... doesn't make me feel so alone... *Puts hand to brow and lifts head looking all lost*

I knew I should have been in television...Drama Queen no doubt GOS would say!

Well sitting here on my butt isn't going to get that wall done now is it... So glad really you can't see me... here I am .. white dusty hair... white vest top and red cut off trousers that are too big and red crocs!! *Not attractive I tell you* Oh and this darn plaster stuff down my chest and a dusty hand print on my butt..

*Sneeze.. sneeze..* Time to clean up...

BBL..................

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5.10 pm

Just had a thought... Are bat wing tops back in fashion? *As was thinking about dinner ladies arms and what best way to hide them than in a batwing top!* Ahh I remember those days... even remember rara skirts... not that I ever had the legs to wear them.... Some of my school friends did... *Hate them all .. hate them do you hear me hate hate hate.... Oooo wonder if most of them still look good...?*

I did remember a few years ago seeing one girl from school... in fact was hard to recongise her... she was walking along the sea front with a push chair and another child holding on.. she looked shattered.. worn and well dragged through a hedge backwards... *Was mean of me to revel in that moment.. but I AM human.. well mostly* She had dark rings round her eyes.. crows feet wrinkles...she looked a wreck... and I thought back to how she was before .. at school.. the pretty girl.. everyone wanted to look like... slim.. lovely hair.. sparkling eyes.. lovely smile.. attracted people.. *Like flies to s**t.. opps sorry!* And now there she was... worn out.. then I thought.. I wonder what life had thrown at her... my feeling of self pride for not looking like that soon passed and turned to pity as such. She could have had a terrible few years and that made me feel rather sad... *But it didn't last and I went off feeling better about myself!*

I guess what I am saying is... make the most of what you have as you never know when it will be gone!... I am sure we have all had better times.. but then doens't mean we are not again... so keep smiling...

*Oh all that thinking has made me hungry.. *

Still not done my dance for GOS.. you know the sexy one I was on about.. .. *was thinking of Pole Dancing again... but not sure my wrists could cope with it.. let alone the pole...might have to give it more thought*

BBL..............

I have to make GOS ice cream today.. *Sulks*

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7.30 ish pm

Well all showered .. spag bol is on.. thin pasta is on.. and I thought I would nip here.. just while it is cooking...

Ouch... I sneezed earlier and pulled a muscle in my back.. *Now that is a sign of old age*

Oh brother on phone!

BBL...

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2.57 am

I know... what am I still doing up! Was watching the box and it got me thinking.. *Dangerous I know!*... but was thinking to why we allow ourselves to get overweight.. insecurity..something to hide behind.. lack of confidence.. being told that your not good enough... there are so many reasons...


Having been sent a photo of myself prior to my 4 stone weight loss.. it does really upset me. How could I have allowed myself to get like that? Why allow myself to get like that even! I am not going to come up with excuses.. which I know I have... but have now realised it is all down to self worth.

No one has a right to make us feel that we have no right to be who we are.. or feel how we do... but some still have powers above that manage to drag you down. Myself.. sadly never having a good relationship with my biological mother and throughout the years.. it has affected me deeply and still does. It wasn't till I was talking to a good friend that it really made me think.... I have spent my whole life worry about what others think of me... I had always been told that what ever I did or do was never good enough... always trying to please... so no wonder I never have had a good opinion of myself.

My whole life.... and what a waste that is... I know our past is what makes us who we are today... but those are years... many years that I will never get back.... My friend is very confident.. and I have to say... she is wonderful... she has spoken to me on my good days and bad days... and she never lies to me...and I have the utmost respect for her. It was talking to her...that makes me think... or should I say think more.

One day I have to cut these painful ties from my past to move forward...and I feel this is one of the reasons I have for many years tried to hide behind... but I am going to try to stop hiding... and learn to be and love me! *Not going to be easy.. but I will try most things once...*

I am glad that I have taken the step to change my life... and often when people take step forward ... they do a lot of self discovery... also sometimes partners don't like seeing change... they react not always in a good way to start with. But I think we have to remember why we are wanting to change our lives... and who we are doing it for... Me it is for me... just for me.

Ahh well.. enough serious rambling...*Going to practice some sexy moves before I perform for GOS*

Night all... sleep well!

Gooooooooooooooooood Morning!!

Now... I am going to start the day with WI results... so you don't get bored of me say.. this morning.... blah de blah... So here goes!

Tuesday WI: 00.00lbs. 4 oz Wooo hooooo...

Yes, I know I shouldn't get excited but another 4 oz and then I will have reached my four stone! Well I already have but I wanted to go from a certain weight point on this eating regime, yes sounds confusing ... but that I am!

*Note to self: Maybe thinking thin really does work.. must do more testing!*

Hay fever is back... but little man on the plasma telly told us last night.. said the count would be high. I am thinking (Which I know is dangerous) but should I take a hay fever tab and spend most of the day feeling tired or just go with the runny nose itching eyes..wheezy chest etc... Doh going to have to take a tablet... I know I will be sleepy for two days again! Oh well can't put up with this...... here goes!!!!

Right, that done...can we go back to celebrating my loss so far? Doh... only me (and you if you are listening to me) that know. GOS doesn't really notice.. just says I am leaving him! I am just gaining myself back. Maybe he should watch out!

Asked again how my POINTS were going last night... I got a smirk... let's leave it at that... I said well he should be worried when I stop asking and he replied "Ah you won't" Well I might!!! (says shaking her head!!)

Gees been 3 mins since I took this tablet.. how long does it take to work!

Now what have I to do today...

Checked email.... nothing!

Still waiting for Bristol SW Manager to get back to me... should I be pushy and ask for her email or just wait? Maybe wait a bit longer... oh I hate waiting...

Oh yeah.. must do plants... when tabs kick in.

Ahh also exercise... go for the burn..

Have breakfast... not sure what to have yet?

Clean my desk!

Go twitter.. ahh now I like that.....

BBL...

*Note to self: Wonder if local honey really does help with hay fever?*

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Ohhhhhhh so tired.. did 30 mins March DVD and 30 mins Cross Training. What is the matter with me? Why am I doing this to myself. I must be some nutter to keep torturing myself...I dream of being slim and laying on a lounger eating cream cakes...

Nah.. don't like them very much so .. what else...Pizza.. nah... mint chocolate chip ice-cream.. now I am talking... Leave me alone a moment while I dream... go on shoo!!

*Spends 1 minute dreaming of eating ice-cream.. the chocolate melting as it runs down the cone...Mmmmm*

Right enough of that! back to reality!

Darn the death of my beloved yesterday.. so inconsiderate... I have been stood at that blasted sink for ages! Guess I should now wash as I go...either that or get a slave... now that could send me off on one of my tangents.. but no.. I will remain firm.

Breakfast:

2 pears... (I was in the garden working!!)

Lunch:

Half of my quiche I made yesterday.. was going to save some for GOS.. but well I was hungry and I know he won't like it.. so I enjoyed it all!! so really that is a half HA


*Note to self.. must season quiche more next time and thinner base*

Right now that the torture is over with and I have eaten, I had best crack on with the darn dishes in the the dead dishwasher and dry the one others up.. then shower and make GOS a quick sandwich and take it to him.. he is fitting a sink and bet he is starving bless him.

We do have this unspoken love for one another.. well there are times we say.. Love you.. I would say it more if it got me points!!

Anyway.. can't sit here all day.. things to do.

BBL

*Note to self... remind yourself why you are exercising is for the good of your health and self image, plus makes you more pleasing on others poor eyes!*

Kitchen all done!! Phew at last.. yes I still want a little slave.. maybe one that will follow me around and attend to my every task I set... now wouldn't that be fun.. of course after the washing.. ironing... cooking etc is done!

Sat here now with a lovely cup of coffee and really enjoying it! Curry is on.. have done a chicken curry along with a potato and tom with onion curry as a side dish.

I am still at a quandary as to how people find other people on these blogs .. I am sure I will figure it out!

*Mental note to self....Still wondering.. just out of interest to weigh all my food and total it up and see if we do actually eat the same weight amount of food a day*

It is still lovely outside and did think of going for a dip.. but by the time I did that lazy broken down dishwashers job.. I don't feel so much like it..... OOOo Michael Boublay is on the radio...such a fantastic voice! (Is that how you spell his name.. I dunno)

Anyway.. have to go and finish the dinner before GOS has a hissy fit and moans he is hungry!

*Wanders off to the kitchen thinking.. geesh I feel tired.. and did I do all on my list today?*



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Just awoken from my slumber... oh have to feed the boys.. will be right back!


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Woke in a right crabby mood...I am the first to admit it! Had to do washing up... again grrr... darn plates and pans... GOS said he was going to do them.. yeah like hell will freeze over first! My poor hands..

*Note to self: Must find gloves!*

Daughter has booked her ferry over to us for her birthday... and got the timings all wrong!! Don't go there... I am going to stay out of it.. before I get my head bitten off!

Well.. boys are fed and watered...I am all agitated and want chocolate!!

So might console myself with a hot chocolate drink and go watch some telly... Oooo Ghost Whisper...he died.. the hubby.. have to see what happens next!

Things to do tomorrow:

Dig up old radishes..

Weed garden.

Water in new plants with food.

Ironing... oh in this day and age all material should be iron free!

Wash up!!! Cuss GOS for not looking at dead dishwasher

Work out.


Dinner:

Chicken Curry with white rice and potato/tom/onion/curry

I have made some WW jellies so might have some of those.. 4 in all ... wonder if they have set.. will have with some 0% fromage frais... oh such joys I have!

Going to check...

Oh total syns for today...

Will fill in tomorrow.. drat no chocolate in!!


The Box Tip:

People who eat healthy, mostly unprocessed foods, including fruit, vegetables, whole grains, legumes, and limited amounts of lean animal protein, often find that they can eat as much as they want without gaining weight. If they are switching from a diet containing lots of processed foods, they find that they can eat more yet consume fewer calories -- and they lose weight.


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Another Day In Paradise!

Yep.. today started with me thumping downstairs and ripping my clothes off again to weigh myself... (with blinds closed again of course!) I am sure when I turned round I saw the scales cowering away... might have been cause it was a little dark or am I really losing the plot?

Well..do you want to know what it said....yeah of course you do ....00.1lb.2oz.. but how can I tell the scales are not giving the wrong reading just to get me off them? I have been rather manic this week... getting on them everyday.. and here is how it has gone..

Monday...2 lb this is weigh in day.. and last Monday I was 2lb 6 oz.. so lost 6 ounces!! bah

Tuesday...1 lb. 2oz (Mmm am there again)

Wednesday...1 lb 2 oz (No loss here)

Thursday... 1lb 6 oz (Grrrr)

Friday... 2lb 6 oz (The scales are against me.. they hate me I tell you.. hate me!)

Saturday... well this you know... yes 1lb 2 oz...

I have been working so very hard.. except yesterday cause feeling so poorly.. hours on the cross trainer.. mowing that lawn.. (That just keeps growing and growing.. hey takes me about 2 hours to mow it.. so it is a big one!!) Stop that.. why are you shaking your head in disbelief.. the garden is not the size of a postage stamp.. well it is if you are flying in an aeroplane!!

So for those that are not up to date on weights...

14 lb in a stone
16 ounces in a lb

So that equates to a loss of 14 ounces! Ahh alright.. it could all change tomorrow and I could be that dream size 10.. why size 10 I hear you ask.. yes this is so I can eat and not mind if I put on a little weight.

What would I do if I was a size 10? Write to Cadbury's Chocolate Factory and ask them if I could swim in a vat of chocolate ....ok reality...I would probably look in the mirror and still find fault with myself.

So the moral of this tale is... It doesn't matter what size you are.. you should make the most of who you are as you only get one chance in life...

Does that mean I can go eat a large bar of chocolate and not feel guilty... Nah!!

Now... what is going in my life?

Hayfever... maybe it isn't just the scales that is against me.. mother nature too! But have been wondering because every time I take an anti histamine tablet.. I always ache later on in the day like I have a cold... so what is it to be.. running nose.. stinging eyes.. blah de blah or aching muscles... Also looking out of my office window.. and it looks like it is snowing.. there is fluff floating around.. it is like cotton wool.. seem to get it every time this year!

I can hear everyone in the village busy putting up the marque for the village fete tomorrow. My GOS was asked to go and help... but he is still in his own land at the moment... did I tell you he hasn't been sleeping well.. well not at night anyway.. manages it throughout the morning!

Oooo a new craft CD ... yes the saddo who watches create and craft on my pc. It is company anyway, not that I chat to it, ok the odd comment.. like for goodness sake woman will you shut up! You will have no idea what I am talking about unless you have seen it!

Spoke to my lovely daughter last night. Felt rather abandoned when she left home... as she couldn't just leave home she had to move to another country! Oh.. she is a good girl.. I say girl.. she is 20 this year... July! So young lady... where do the years go... I am so very proud of her though. I only have to look at her and think yes I did a wondeful job because she has manners and a heart of gold and so much more besides.

She is coming to visit for her birthday next month and I am so excited. Yep so excited I could be sick! I secretly think GOS is looking forward to her coming home to... he is on about heating the pool for her! I have to go in when it is cold.. brrr.

Oh look at me rambling again... I should have called this the Dieters Rambler... I have some cards to make and send out... so will be back later, that you can be sure of!!

*Closes thinking how nimble she will be when she is slimmer*

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Wow.. where has the time gone.. have to go get ready to go out now.. done the card ... so shopssssssss here I come!!!


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Back but have colour on my head and rushing around as going out this evening... Been sooooooooooo long since I went out what does one wear!! Think I will go in casual.. jeans and jacket... is that the norm nowadays????

Well you will hear all about it when I get back.

*Terrible thought.. what if all my hair comes away when I shower this colour off!!*


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Great news... if you care... the hair is all there... and damn I look good! I threw some clothes on.. yep went for jeans.. flowing black top and pinstripe jacket. Had a quick fight in my mind.. "Does this look okay?" "Does my bum look big in these jeans"? (Always!!) "Do I feel comfortable in this?" Then thought bugger it! Need to put face on and dash out ...

All in car heading off to a couples house we had only met the once and going to their house seems odd.. but hey have to go with the flow. You would think at my time of life I would be used to being in peoples houses.. but always find it a little un-nerving! Reminds me when I always used to visit my good friends house after school, no matter what I did... I always managed to break something or spill something on the carpet or settee!

Nice house... lovely garden.. sat there feeling a frump with my water. Oh your going to ask why water now aren't you.. tut! Ok I avoid caffeine as it sends me loopy and wine upsets my tum so what is left.. and this re-establishing my eating habits.. can't go over have to lose weight this week (Feel some ocd coming in here!) So I opted for water. Did try to see if one of the bars had diet tonic water.. nope! But in the end I managed to get a decaf coffee that was in a cup that was about the size of an egg cup!

We all sat in the square listening to a band after leaving the couples house... was ok.. but darn it got cold.. Thank god I wore my padded bra!! (Not that I need padding, but they do coming in handy I tell you!)

Dropped our friends off on the way back.. I wanted to hit the eject button but GOS didn't respond so they got out like the normal people do!

I am now cooking some SW pot chips as I am hungry.. they all had fried chips from the van in the square... I sat there like a health freak eating a banana!

Anyway... night over and done with and have to get stressed out for tomorrow now... Geesh your nosy.. right I will tell you .. tomorrow is the village broconte (that is fete incase you don't know).

I am going to sell or hope to sell some of my greeting cards... I have so many and I think it is time I got rid. I love making them and do keep just making them.. so time for a room cleanse!

Met a lady in the square tonight who gave me her card.. only turns out that she makes cards too! I smiled and couldn't resist saying I made them and she then started to reel off the type of cards she makes... like I didn't know occasions and it was all new to me... but me being me did my usual Caledonian Air Hostess smile and nodded and looked suprise head. I have been practising and using that for years.. you know the smile with no teeth.. slight head tilt when the change of tone is heard in the voice.. raise of eyebrow and looking interested... you know the one I mean.. I am sure you have done it yourself.

Next time you're on the phone... stand in front of a mirror and see how you do facial expressions to someone that can not even see your face! Bet you do that don't you?

My GOS was lovely to me tonight... I thought my luck might have been in.. but now I am on a point system for being good (News to me?!) .. I have three points and I have no idea how many I have to get before I really start to smile!!

Dreaded thought.. I had better have lost weight on Monday...if not then I don't know what I am going to do. Mmm maybe I should make one of those counter things that the hostesses used to have in cinemas to sell ice-creams etc and put my laptop on it and take it out walking .. that will lose a few pounds or a back ache!

Father's Day tomorrow... I miss my Dad.. and my daughter... not spoken to her on the net today! She is visiting my god-mother.

Well ... going to check my dinner then think I will watch some telly... (Please no discovery!)

"Wanders off thinking ~ I wonder how long my hallway is and how many times up and down would a mile be.. could use it as an indoor running track"

Is today the day!

Got up early today... darn birds happily tweeting away! I know can't eat all of them with fries.. but would love to try!! No no... I love them really they do make me smile or is that grin.. nah I like them really.
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So as I ran downstairs.. yes took the scales down to the other bathroom.. the thought crossed my mind.. "Have I reached my 4 stone loss yet"

Skidding into the bathroom I checked to make sure both blinds were down...didn't want to scare any neighbours.. (they can't see in anyway, but just in case someone had a telescopic lens on the eyeballs.. down they went...) threw off my pjs, unhinged myself from my crocs and tapped the scales.

Oh yeah.. all the mod cons.. electric scales for ME.. just thank god they don't speak! Or in my case scream!

Disappointment I am afraid..back to..00.2.6 oz!!! Damn it damn it damn it.. *I wonder if air in the body makes us lighter or heavier... probably neither* Might be one question I could put to mythbusters... no it isn't that is it.. it is something science... anyway...

Went to sulk on my pc for while.

Had to whiz into town, a neighbour took me.. needed to post some greetings cards... well Father's Day ones... 3 of them actually ... and some that were ordered...

Came back to find other half was up!!! Yes.. well he has been going to bed later.. so I guess I should not moan he is in bed half of the next day!

Got two chops out for dinner...

Did I have breakfast.. ahh yeah... darn fromage frais... only turned out to the 20% fat one... I felt like a child who could have thrown herself on the floor screaming...

I got over it and thought oh well can't get back to the shops so had that with the rest of my all bran and some pineapple. Rather tasty to be honest.. but I am sure I could feel my hips expanding as I ate it... Nah maybe I am just being parinoid.

Sat at pc for a while watching a film... Autumn... a supposed horror... don't ask.. ok I will tell you.. I waited and waited for something exciting to happen.. yes on the edge of me seat.. almost biting my nails and the end credits came up.. ahh well ...just glad I didn't go the flicks.. pictures what ever they call it nowadays to see it!

Been feeling a little flu like last couple of days so I am now laying in bed doing this.. naughty I know.. but how luxurious it is.. I just need some strong strapping men with fans and maybe one to massage my feet and feed me grapes!! I don't want much do I.. and I am not going to get much either!!

Ooo.. I had lunch.. 2 danish malted brown pieces of bread with vlfc and herbs and tomato with a yogurt ....geesh I lead an exciting life.

Anyway... my dream today would be to at least get to lose those darn couple of pounds as my weigh in day is on Monday... no cross trainer for me today...I am sick damn it.. what do you want blood!!!

I had to get up to go the loo only a few minutes ago and want to go again.. I tell you my body is at war with me... it is ... really it is.. okay I am feeling lazy!

Update later.... want to go play with those widgets or gadgetmsahthinybob ..... watch me mess this whole thing up now!

*Think thin.. think thin*


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Back and have been messing with this for hours now.. and doesn't look any better... Maybe someone will be by soon and let me know what they think...

Oh what!! A woman of my age wants to know if it looks ok.. daft sod. That is like trying to squeeze into a size 10 dress and thinking it fits.. pfft it doesn't matter.

Anyway.. I did wonder if those chops were defrosted yet... as will have to go cook something... I think it will be chops (Are you surprised!!) with some roasted vegetable.

You never know I might get to see some telly after dinner...I do get to watch telly if I want to watch Discovery all the time. Don't get me wrong it can be great... but I know I am going to die.. so why depress myself and stress myself out thinking the sun is going to kill us all.

Ok .. ramble over with.

*Wanders off wondering if I am turning into one of those Grumpy Old Women?*


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Oooo... dinner was lovely... you know I am a good cook... well nothing like blowing my own trumpet is there!! Roasted vegetables.. carrot, parsnip, red pepper, courgette and crispy roasted spuds with a nice pork chop... followed by pineapple and FF!! Are you impressed?

Yeah so was I till I spoilt it with some crunchy fries, but not going to moan about it as I have been so good all week! And I am poorly.. what you forgotten already!! Pfft!

Back in bed and thinking thank goodness for laptops! Don't think I could have sat in my office any longer... ooo don't I sound posh.. an office in my house.. well it is true I tell.. it is!!

Ahh . ... will I reach my goal this week....it is either the 2lb.6 oz loss or waking up and diving into a new slimline size 10 pair of jeans... haha that even made me chuckle. What your not laughing? You would if you could see me!

Drat.. most of my favourite programmes are coming to a close.. what am I going to do with myself?? I mean.. the end of Brothers and Sisters.. Ghost Whisper is about to come to an end...Waterloo Road has already finished. I feel that my telly is picking on me for not watching more Discovery!

Anyway.. guess I should stop nattering...and maybe rest my poor bones.. I was trying to be funny earlier by telling my father that I had flu like symptoms.. but the daft thing was I kept having this urge to fly like a bird!! He didn't get it.. my humour is wasted.. wasted I tell you.

Ok that is it.. I am gone...

*Prays to the scale gods for weight loss*