It has been nearly 2.5 weeks since I pulled a few muscles and they should be getting better.. well they are just not as quick as I would like! *Nothing is ever as quick as I would like it it be!*
The diet.. well I am still be careful.. but saying that this morning I did have two pieces of toast with butter.. Mmmm real butter and marmite... *Marmite is the only thing there that I could eat freely ...damn!*
One day at a time eh! Always one day at a time.
Had a big chat with GOS last night and got a lot off my chest.. or should I say back! And I keep saying affirmations to myself...I love myself and am a good person and I will be free from pain... then I throw in that what others think doesn't matter and let go off it all. I find if I do this with deep breathing I do relax more.
Goodness I know how to relax.... nope not with a drinkypoos or fags... as I dont' do either... Oh crap.. what a life!
But I have to set myself some goals of what I want out of my life. and stick to them to make them work.
So here are a few...
Lose weight
Be healthy
Be happy
Not be self consious
Not to worry what others think of me
Do what I like
Express myself more verbally so not to hold on to emotions. *Can manage this with loving things, but can't seem to tell people what I think when they hurt me*
Learn to love myself
Realise that I can not change my past.
Let go of old emotions
Dump a lot of thoughts
There that is a few to be getting on with.... I know that Rome wasn't built in a day ... so baby steps!
